surreptitious57
Can we always know for certain what our behavior would be in the future?
Are we so passive that we would automatically “accept” anything and everything which comes to us? There would be no fight or struggle to change something? Does “coping” include allowing everything?
No, I wouldn’t say that it is exclusive to you but I also wouldn’t say that it is an UNIVERSAL human response. Most people are not generally passive about things which occur in their life, at least not things which make a great difference to them. Believe it or not, I find that struggle is important for survival, for physically, mentally and emotional. But in balance of course but meaning does need to be whittled down to what’s really important and what can be thrown away.
A “buddhist” may not have been even reasonable there. I don’t think that buddhists are necessarily that passive. They are pro-active when they feel it calls for them to be. I wouldn’t exactly call a buddhist who sets himself on fire and just sits there in the street waiting to burn up - for a cause which he sees as important - as being passive though that would depend on someone’s interpretation of passive.
You want to believe that that is your default position from now and I hope it works for you but in reality you can’t really know how you will react to certain stimuli/circumstances, et cetera - and a butterfly at some point has to emerge from his coccoon. You seem to have made a coccoon of your life. But that’s your decision.
How long do you think it would take for the police to show up if a child is being beaten by his father? This is the thing about default positions - you can’t know in advance if they will work or not. “One size does not fit all.” We can’t always keep the letter of the law but hopefully we will keep the spirit of the law. Depending on where you live, there is a Good Samaritan Law. If it is found out that you just stood by while a child was being beaten, and did nothing, you could find yourself in a lot of trouble.
But maybe if you actually SAW it happening, you would respond. Would you?
Well, there are times when I would like to do the same thing. There are times when I am so down on humanity but then I gradually let it go. I love my aloneness, my solitude - we all definitely need that - but my natural mood and attitude is that I basically like and enjoy human beings…most of them anyway - except for those I don’t. I couldn’t be a recluse.
Anyway, you’re not 100 a recluse or reclusive. If you were, you wouldn’t be in here posting and interacting with people.
About what you said above - “you don’t love anyway and no one loves you”. I don’t necessarily find anything wrong with that. That’s your choice if one can say that it is actually a choice. That would depend on things within you which you may not be aware of. There are causes for things but still the decision is ours to make. There have been a few times in my life when I felt that would be a great way to live (some losses are more unendurable than others) but I got over that way of thinking. Not the losses but the effect of them. Time does in part heal. The rest is up to us.
But as long as there are still THINGS which you can love, have an interest in and a passion for, you can still live a satisfying life, one that you may feel is optimal. If you don’t have that, well then - I don’t know.
But again, you are here in ILP. How can that in itself not be satisfying? lol