thinkdr wrote:
In my own life experience, I as a young boy of 14 learned a judo move. Soon after, some kid, who likely lived in the district, came up to me, in the street, and started shadow boxing in my face, perhaps looking to do a little sparring. I used the move that I had read about on him, tripped him up and he fell backward onto the street on his back.
For the rest of my life, once I reached maturity, my conscience has been bothering me: Did he injure his brain as he hit the tarred road? Did he suffer a concussion? I'll never know, as I never saw him, or any of his eight cohorts, his buddies again. The point is, that one little momentary triumph on my part was definitely not worth it. {Since then the entire neighborhood of my boyhood was razed to the ground in the name of Urban Renewal, taken by eminent domain; so I can't go back there even if I tried. All the residents were dispersed and scattered in a diaspora. I now live about 2000 miles away from that city of my birth.}
I am not trying to mitigate your actions, but you were then
just a boy of 14. What happened also points out how important it is when anyone, child [or] adult, learns a new martial art discipline - to also learn how to discipline the mind by not reacting except in certain situations...or how to respond in particular situations. If I'm not mistaken, a 'true' teacher also teachers that. Perhaps you learned the 'move' on your own. In any area of life, whatever the situation or circumstances, we ALL have to learn this but do we really?
At what age do you feel ‘you reached maturity’? Was your conscience bothering you ‘before’ you reached maturity? You used the word ‘once’…. This is not a challenge, thinkdr, I am only interested in your answer. Since you were there at the time of his fall, was he hurt? Did they have to call an ambulance for him or did he get up on his own? Did you try to find out what happened to him?
You reacted to something though apparently it was not your intention to hurt him. Aside from all of that, you did learn a valuable lesson. You said that your conscience was still bothering you. Is it now? I don’t think that we have to go through life allowing our consciences to bother us ad continuum. That, in itself, doesn’t have much effect on us, except to make us feel badly, which doesn’t necessarily change our behavior. But once we’ve seen as much of the picture as we can, taken responsible for our part of the behavior and learned that particular lesson, we can let go of the guilt and move on. There will be many more lessons to learn and guilt to let go of. But I’m pretty sure you know all of this.
Are you still into the martial arts?
