I got so mad today I almost picked up my laptop and smashed it on the floor. I was in the middle of arguing with my family and I looked around for something that would be nice to break and I very clearly desired to smash my laptop to pieces just for the fuck of it. I wanted to see the parts splayed out on the ground. I honestly don’t know what held me back. Maybe it was the thought that that wouldn’t help anything. Fuck that thought.
Hm. Interesting. I ironically expect more from you.
It was a weird day…the kind where mood and emotion ranged broadly. So I have to ask, what more do you expect?
The financial investment held you back. You should be ashamed. I on the other hand have smashed 2 thus far.
As satisfying as it might have felt, I’m also tired of being led around by the impulse to sabotage myself.
I have been there, and also not smashed that… due to the financial cost it would incur aha - I have at times felt like smashing every single thing in my house to pieces, but instead make a nice cup of tea and go to bed.
Yes, it’s been a lovely day today 