Currently I am going through my own existential or personal crisis. I just took a pay cut and the future of working or existing the “honest” way in so called civilized society is not looking very attractive at all.
More and more my future life from now looks like one of eternal wage slavery without any hope whatsoever of alleviation.
I will not succumb to slavery.
I see no escaping or fighting it in within the confines of civilization along with the bastards and bitches that run it.
I see no benefit in remaining within civilization. I see nothing at all.
At this point in the game I am thinking about going deep into a permanent exile living on the fringes of civilization and society. Thankfully I know of four to seven hundred miles of wilderness that can facilitate as sanctuary for me living off the land away from collectivist nightmare as I like to call it.
If I can’t be independent within civilization I will create my own image of a existence outside it.
It is there I plan to make my final stand and hope to retain some personal self independence something of which I no longer see possible in collective society.
I am not sure either way what I am going to do at this point but I do know that I will come to my decision by September of this summer. Either things will get better by this September where I will continue to etch out a existence within civilization or I will make my permanent retreat outside of it.
To be honest I am quite calm about all of this because I have dazed into the nightmarish future of modern society where I wish to take no part in it. It doesn’t interest me. A social fascist future of biological tracking and identification systems run by madmen or fools just to hint at what I see in store for this sad pathetic humanity.
I imagine myself in this permanent exile of mine as one where I live as isolative hermit or mountainman living on the fringes of civilization.
In the past I have fantasized and imagined about doing this but I think this is the first time that I have felt more comfortable with the decision in actually putting it into practice. I feel more and more that this might be my only path to self fulfilling satisfaction.
My woman of course has talked about this with me where she has said that if worse comes to worse she would come with me to do the same.
If this is taken up me, her, and my offspring would live in the sanctuary of the wild awaiting for event that would bring the collapse of civilization that would be the only thing to bring us out of exile. Either that or we would die trying. We both know the risks in all of this and those who would try to oppose us.
Now for those who like seeing my posts here know that upon my exile I will stroll back every once in awhile on the internet through some random public library assuming that they do not take away free speech in the future so that I can mock the world around me as usual.
Every once in awhile I will want to stroll back into civilization just to keep up on current events where I will describe and give out testimonials of what it is like living in exile within the wilderness from the far reaches of “civilized” society.
That and because also I will want to scavenge around for supplies,tools, or resources also from time to time.