People seem to ignore that drugs can be wonderful. You feel great after taking them. And then you feel like shit and most of them destroy your body and are extremely unhealthy but to depict drugs as something completely negative would be unrealistic. And this is coming from someone who never did drugs.
Coming from someone who has recently come off a serious opiate addiction, I agree completely with what you said. I'm going to go further with this though. To me, the biggest thing that Drugs are, is deceptive. When you come within the realm of the "Event Horizon" it will pull you in with incredible force. I really did wholeheartedly believe that besides the obvious physical anguish related with cessation, that there was nothing wrong with being on drugs all the time. I felt vibrant, confident, happy. Still though, I struggled to find peace. I often would get incredibly angry for very trivial reasons, it seemed like I was fighting with myself at times. Before I started using again (this was the second time around) I was in a dark place and drugs seemed to hold the key to the door that would lead me into the light. Well, they sort of did. What I learned though as time went on, was that the drug was tricking me into believing that I couldn't live without it. I was not only terrified of the physical aspects of withdrawal but also I feared that all of my confidence and vibrance would vanish and never return, because I believed that it was the drugs which were providing all of this for me. When I decided to quit I prepared myself for disaster but had at least some confidence that I could do it. During this time of withdrawal I attempted to communicate with God, something I hadn't done in years. I asked him for a sign anything at all, of course there was nothing. But as I sat there talking to myself or God or whatever...I realized that it didn't matter whether God existed or not, in fact this was probably of least consequence. Because I felt what mattered was that I stayed true to myself and my beliefs. Regardless of
any form of God. Eventually this led me to the belief that everything is perfect exactly the way it is. When the physical anguish was finally over...I felt amazing and more confident and vibrant then ever. I accepted that I cannot really control anything and you take it as it comes with no anger, no doubt and no fear. Using drugs...is the coward's way.
At the end of the day though I feel drugs did help me through a dark time...but I feel that in using drugs to 'jump-start' emotional or spiritual development, you have denied yourself experience. That goes for any drug that gives you so much without asking for anything in return.
Although there is something to be said for the experience of what I went through with withdrawals. Also perhaps there is something to be said for the experience of all of the various psychedelics and pharmaceuticals I have done. I guess it sounds pretty corny to just say that drugs are easily abused but this is just so very true. Marijuana of course...seems to fall within a different category, I mean our brains have receptors specifically geared to be activated by THC. Natural selection created this plant seemingly for us. Or...we were created with THC in mind...hahaha, I dunno just talking.... This wouldn't be the only thing that seems designed by nature with Mankind in mind. However it can certainly be misused as well.
I do believe though, that we can enjoy these things, these material and biological experiences because they are part of what we are but one must never worship a drug as if it holds all the answers and solutions. Or that it holds the key to bliss. You must find that for yourself. If you allow yourself to be sucked deeper and deeper...you may do some permanent emotional damage that can never truly be repaired.
Oh and I wasn't arguing anything I was just giving trying to provide some insight.
Yeah, Breaking Bad is a damn good program. Especially considering all the absolute shit they put on television that's made for...I dunno...retards I guess.