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Like you want A (a person, a thing, oh, you have a “crush” on A ? fantasizing ? images ? playing around ? instincts ? but rules ? morality ? embaressing ?, etc.) and the next moment you realize what a mistake, “what were you thinking ?”, and maybe the other person “finds out” and may think and do and act and behave in anyway at all from the complete spectrum from hate, aggressive to pure love or whatever (and the thought paths activated between you and the other person, the reciprocal intentionalities path may be and go anywhere and may be put in the strangest and most unpredictable kinds of narratives, you would never have guessed, etc., meanings are switched, mistakes and misunderstandings abound and the real reason you or A does something is C, but then it becomes D and the original reasons are forgotten or become many different ones, ever changing, always a completely new narrative and so on like “first I felt sorry for him” then “I got angry and wanted to punish him” , “what is he crazy to think that or even imagine that?” and then switch back and forth and something else (jealous ? envy ? but I don’t want to be jealous! internal conflicts) and a million new start point to targets and new reasons, new intentionalities changing the whole game) and you switch back and forth yes, no, (and the emotional roller coaster, but the intensity can be even very low level, just slightly, almost purely simply a logical, mental game, almost like playing chess, no emotion or feeling, or it can be extreme feeling, or anything in between and it can last a second, day, year or decades, and the “affair” can go on, mix, be wrong, right and switch all over the place forever) maybe and the other person switches too and the interactions are now random, a new stage from which to start a new mysterious cycle, but also, you can completely forget all what happened, or only remember a part, same for A, other thing(s), person(s) or group(s) or whatever(s) etc. And the same person could have a certain meaning in a certain context, and another in another context, and be part of a general image in yet another context (but wasn’t that person this or that, and didn’t I feel or think or anything with regards to that person according to that other context) and so on. And you can insert that person in a vague internal narrative that defines it (the person, as the person is an it, a thing after all, a chunk of matter) as a tag, a word, a placeholder implying some certain potential interactions (but maybe not, etc.), but then the narrative can change and the reciprocal narrative of the “other”(?) person can also be vague, change, jump all around, or being completely out of synchronization with yours or anyone’s else.
And all of that drowning in a complex network of potential “intentionalities of Use”, “Intentionalities of Behaviors, Interactions, Games”, “Expectations, Expectations of Great (or shallow or no ?) Outcomes”, “Expectations of Achieving and Happiness (?)”, etc. And all of those networks creating complex, vague feedback loops, influencing each other, conditioning each other…
Or all may be all very simple you have a very complex and contorted view of all, while the other person, thing, object is simple to the extreme, but you will never know, or even if you know for you it may become even more complex, or maybe very simple or maybe you will forget all, etc.
All of that just to prove to you how our Man Brain, our thoughts, and logic and reasoning is the most artificial thing possible and all of the talk of nature is totally absurd as we are “Not Nature” to the extreme.
To Busty and similar posts:
“and gaze out across a landscape of rotting decay.”
But you wouldn’t know it was rotting and decay if you didn’t remember how it was, but how it was was only temporary, man is the infinitely programmable machine that can get used to anything, and anything can become the new normal. Who said that our previous clean landscape was ever normal, or was supposed to be like that forever ? things change, all changes, and most changes are almost always for the worse, just suck it up, deal with it: the global economy, the increase of technology and the industrial revolution and all the forces that have jumped around and played with themselves in the last 200 to 300 years have been very unpredictable (and then, what is it with this idea of predicting things ? who ever thought things are predictable in the first place ? go figure), chaotic, and can and will go anywhere at all no matter how much we try to figure them out: that is why the Standard Economic Model is so useless, it is mostly just wishful thinking, always forcing the world to abide to an imaginary fairy tale model of the world that is not operating and probably has never operated (if only slightly for only 20 to 30 years from the 1960s to the 1990s but with a very specific level of technology, population, degree of globalization, in very specific countries, nay, specific regions of countries, etc.)
OK, true, I say way too much crap here and elsewhere but may I say this, seriously: no matter how many times we try to analyze, figure out, think it out, and no matter how many new things I say, or anyone else says, and no matter how much or how many times anything else, a fundamental constraint, limit, law is and will always be operating within the society, economy, you name it: the constraint of conflicting people over everything and anything, there is no way out of this, there will always be a boatload of contradictions, unresolved conflicts (just like my “unresolved internal conflicts”), contention of resources, fighting over resources or jobs or goods or status, political programs, you name it. Man is fight, and fight is the name of the game and all of the attempts at find some general rules, some objective rules that are correct and by which a society should govern itself are destined to fail or in the best case be partially successful, but always partially, no matter what.
And every time you may reach an equilibrium, a steady state (even after you say a million blocks of texts, you live through a million experiences thinking that now you know, now you are ok, now you will not make a mistake) you can be sure that something, anything, any random interaction will tip it off balance again, will start the game rolling all over again, and there you go again, start analyzing all over again, find solutions to “that new problem” (but mostly likely that same old problems that have been around forever), etc.
We are and man is and society is and economy is instability from the outset, permanent problems mode structurally, permanently unresolved, unstable, permanently without any solution.
Now, go on give me another block of texts explaining what is wrong and what we need to do.
Is that all there is to life ? yes that is all, it is a one transistor circuit, very simple, very nothing, very empty and bare and useless. Just juggle 2 or 3 bits and you will be happy. Free you mind, do not think of anything, it is all a “waste of time” (but isn’t time always wasted from the outset ? isn’t time a waste by definition ?).