Shook hands today with a rapist

Before this I was Impenetent.

Didn’t you used to live in australia?

And how can you be mad at money grubbers and druggies with that avatar?

Dude. I work hard. I have a job. I’m smart, and successful at what I do.

But that doesn’t stop me from coming home at the end of the day and thinking, 'Hmm,

  1. Everyone is not equal.
  2. Some people get ahead because they’re born into it.
  3. Everyone having the same odds as ‘getting lucky’ requires you to first define luck, which is problematic and probably not worth pursuing in any meaningful fashion.

Then I sometimes go on to think things like 'Hmm, the system we live in seems to be run by some of the most satanic people on the planet, and with a few adjustments to the world banking oligarch hell-bent on making our lives serve like 2000 actual people, we could live in a relative utopia where basically the lives of everyone are more or less equal. At the least, way more than now.

Then sometimes I’m met with Americans who throw at me literally some of the strangest arguments known to man.

This is the life I lead.

Sounds like socialism to me. You realize the things you’re saying are like the things a socialist would say??

I read all these books by this american guy once, and he talked all about this crazy logic stuff, and I came to the conclusion, that logic is just a lens, or a grid which we might lay over things in order to sort them out, but that there is literally nothing outside of it, but that there are still some things in everything that it can’t quite get at, and therefore you can make any statement, about anything, backed by any opinion into a logical argument. I believe the term, “illogical” is a misnomer. So naturally, some of my arguments might be a little bit twisty and turny, but I’m not bullshitting at all.

Every single living person is equal to every other living person?

Yeah. From there you read Wittgenstein. Then you have a nervous breakdown. Then you learn that philosophy is stupid and you get into the occult.

It’s not that the arguments are twisty turny. The arguments are just bad. What the constitution says has nothing to do with anything here.

We’re talking about whether one should gloat about shaking hands with putrid specimens of existence.

In the ways I’m talking about, barring retards and cripples.

Yeah, man. We’re all on the earth, too.

Nah I heard that dude was eventually proven wrong, so I just skipped him. I did read some shit from a dude named Saussere or something. Pretty good but not as compelling as I want my books to be.

Because I smoke so much weed, maybe, I literally never, ever ever have a dream, (at least one that I remember the next day), but I did once have a dream that I met Bill Clinton at a McDonald’s in DC and got to chill and eat a McMuffin w/ him. It was the coolest dream I’ve ever had, and I shit you not I’m not making this up.

Would you consider Clinton to be amongst those types?

Clinton is a brainwashed person controlled by Hilary.

Dude, try to dream. I smoke more than you (probably) and I make it a point.

Otherwise existence is just consciousness separated by periods of unpenetrable coma blackness.

I do plenty of daydreaming. And I smoke a shit ton my friend. It’s obscene. I haven’t been to work in 4 or 5 days and I’ve just been running batches of BHO and hitting it off the oil rig. I pretty much just use weed as a place to put hash. I’ve had probably 4lbs of the shit go through my hands in the last 30 days. It’s hilarious. I’ve got a batch of brownies on my counter right now, and in a minute, I’m going to heat up a glass nail till it’s red hot w/ my little blowtorch and take a hit of oil that’s going to make me have spots in front of my eyes for the next hour and I’ll probably catch a case of the wah-wahs. I also have my own little hydro setup that I’ve chopped like 2 or 3 lbs out of in the last year, which I use strictly for vacation money.

Speaking of that, do you know any good places to surf in the carribean? I’m taking this girl island hopping in a few months and I’m looking for a site that’ll show me all the best surf spots because she likes to surf. I’ve already booked a submarine trip in aruba too man it’s gonna be fucking awesome.

I laughed.

You definitely seem to smoke more.

Still. Dreaming is important. Truly enlightened people a) don’t need drugs and b) don’t ever lose ‘consciousness;’ when they dream it’s lucid.

The only lucid dreams I’ve ever had were when I was sober.

To be completely honest, when I was a little kid I had the same dream over and over all the time, and I felt like I was in it, and able to control myself and all that, then I would wake up terrified and go and wake up my parents. I can’t really remember when it stopped, because I was really little like between 4 and maybe 7 years old roughly, and I’m almost 33 now, but I’m pretty much cool with not dreaming. If I take opiates I dream, but they’re crazy dreams. Once I dreamed I was in my house and heard a sound, then woke up and got into a fight in the dark, then stabbed someone, turned on the light, and it was this dude I’d seen before at my workplace, (with like 200 employees), but I’d never talked to him or formed an opinion of him consciously. That’s some pretty crazy dreaming there. It’ll fuck up the whole next day.

My dreams are always in the same dreamscape. Same general collection of stuff from my life combined in this world. Pretty much a city with 2 bridges (like halifax and vancouver) all these buildings with secret passages, and a gun I can summon by aiming my fingers into a gun.

I’m told if you dream in the same defined area every time it’s a good thing in the sense that your brain has mapped out that state.

One time I tried to lucid dream while pretty baked. I got past being conscious, but not fully in dreaming, and kind of ‘woke up’ without waking up and got this insane pain in my brain—but was I dreaming it, or was it physical? I just kind of rolled over in a semi-sleep paralysis and went to actual sleep. It was weird.

When I actually lucid dream I tell people in my dreams that I’m conscious, and they are just part of that. Sometimes i make fireballs or spontaneously cause them to have extended orgasms.

Have you ever had that weird sleep where you take lsd the day before, then stay up all night, then you finally go to sleep at like 7 in the morning, kind of, then you are sort of half asleep/half awake until your body just aches from laying down too long and you have to get up?

An hour before you finally have to get up, strange things happen in your brain.

Yes, I saw these ‘pillars’ of… ok I can’t even explain it. But I saw these pillars. Sort of like mirrors that project reality.

Anyways, i had been up for a day because I was doing E, and then I was just kind of sitting there and I noticed this certain layer of visual data that, to this day, I can focus on.

What is really strange is what when I had been up for this long, it was much clearer, and when I focused really had I saw that the ‘static’ was actually the vertices of ‘4d’ (or whatever) shapes that were spinning around in accordance with the pillars. Basically the link, or the code in which visual data is displayed in this, what looked to be a computer system. Anyways, it was all about merkabas.

Everything I saw was either that, or a triangle.

Also, about 3 times on shrooms I’ve fallen into a half-asleep state where I’ve distinctly realized the ‘meaning of life’ and, somehow, it was different each time. I just don’t know how.

When I was a kid I’d go to the dentist and they’d put me on that nitrous. I figured out that every couple of minutes, a nurse would pop in and ask how you were doing. So long as you responded, they let you have more gas. I literally trained myself w/ all my focus to just keep responding and I would get insane visuals man. The dentist even came in once and noted that 30% nitrous for so many minutes normally knocked people out, but that mine was on 50% for way longer.

It’s always been hard for me to sleep. I was prescribed phenobarbitol when I was in high school, triazadone, ambien whatever. Sleeping pills don’t make me sleep, they just put me into a trance where I have insane focus. I can take ambien and read a book through the night and retain the information.

I only sleep when my body physically passes out. No more than 6 hours consecutively, at the most in as long as I can remember.

About the mushrooms, I grow those too. I just got a whole new set of substrate jars and am trying to pick the next strain. I’ll let you know how they come out.

If you can stay awake for extended periods of time, then power to you.

I can’t. I wish I could. And when I sleep for too long without dreaming I feel like it’s not good.

Let me know how the spores go.