Hey, don’t insult the beautiful beast. I think it’s fur is gorgeous and a nice bronze color (I think).
Look at the likes of you - always walking around with a cat on your head.
I’ve had similar things happen to me. I refuse to remain isolated, though. I don’t think I’m really any happier for that choice, to be honest; it brings about its own set of problems and bullshit. Even in isolation, you bring pain to things you touch, but I don’t say that meanly. It’s just to say that I sympathize with you and wish I could take some of your pain, which I guess I just did. Still, though, I wouldn’t trade where I am now for any of where I’ve been and I wouldn’t trade it for isolation. I have thought about it, though. I’d like to take a couple years away from this purpose that drives me to try to live simply and without worrying about the world; just focus on myself, but I couldn’t even really do that when I needed to sit back and do that. I’m sorry for the way the world is. I know it’s not my fault, but I’m still sorry.
I know some would question how your brothers’ smile could fill you with joy after he did what he did to you, but I can understand. I’ve only ever wished the best for every person who has fucked me over. Sure, there’s been some anger involved and I’ve often ranted and raved in private where no one could really see; took some of that rage out on internet trolls and flamers that deserved it. But, at the end of it, I only ever hoped that some day they would ‘get it’ and their life would be better for it.
I was actually in the process of opening up a bit here, but just deleted everything I typed. I don’t want to make this seem like a pissing match and you don’t need the weight of my problems or what I’ve been through. Something tells me you’ve been through enough on your own that you’re not mentioning. Some times I doubt what I do and if it’s even worth it and then I’m reminded of people like you; people like how I used to be. You give me hope for the future even though you don’t know it. You give me incentive to keep trying and to keep pushing forward even when all seems against me and I thank you for that. People like you are exactly what I’m fighting for.