What is this i don’t even. You seem aware of flux yet unable to apply it to situations. Everyone “fluxes” from hating things to loving things. Because I had a minor outbreak of hating emotions doesn’t make it valid. It’s also irrelevant whether I hate something or not, it doesn’t matter to the cosmos actually. Values change. Noone wants to marry me because I dont want to marry anyone, that is a value. It only matters in the instance you worry about it, once you stop worrying about your love life it is irrelevant to the cosmos until you return to the frame of mind where you worry about it again.
“What you really are”
You seem to be of the ilk that defines a person in antiquated means. People are simply a combination of lego bricks and forces. They are streams and transient entities. Thoughts are (usually) without weight. I have a responsibility only because it suits this current instance’s goals. If the current instance goals change my responsibility fades away or morphs. Beliefs change goals change. I am aware survival doesn’t mean superiority I don’t know why you are arguing about that ideal. As for your current values, you don’t seem to have anything except being a rude cunty mccunterson.
As far as childs play, chasing desires, there’s no reason to in a world where all the odds are against you. You learn to just call it quits after years of dealing with uncooperative homo (sapiens.) Eventually you evolve into a god who’s only desire is to rid the world of uncooperative sapiens.