A lot of ways for pain was invented by smart people.
I feel maybe smartness is a disease.
My friend is an anti-natalist which means that she doesn’t believe human baby’s should be born so thoughtlessly or maybe not at all, she says. 8ut only because what we get out of life doesn’t measure up to what it does to us.
The relation between depression and intelligence, I believe, comes because the person doesn’t accept that the things that bother him or her are important.
The day I decided to admit they were important was the day I became free. But still I was depressed because I was so alienated from these problems from pretending for so long that they weren’t important. I had to acquaint myself with them, do in little time what my body expected me to be doing the whole time. And then one day before I knew it I was happy.
Takes time and hard work.
Also I had to work on my other disease, drug addiction, which feeds so well from depression. That’s just a matter of drugs affect me more deeply than none addicts, tangling that power up with avoiding pain finally triggered the addiction, where drugs are more fundamental to me than happiness or anything. So I can’t use them anymore, and the way to quit them is a trip. I guess healing from both diseases came hand in hand. Leaving depression gave me the reason and quitting drugs the means.
Along the way a lot of magic and beauty which effects are still unfolding. It was all worth it. Goddamn I’m a lucky man.
Anyway, I gave my prescription for depression, but for drug addiction it’s more.complicated, to do with more basic neural pathways, so you really need professionals. I say go with tecovered or recovering addicts that channel or become professionals, so AA and rehabs that use the Minnesota method.
I can say it’s worth it. I even feel lucky for the pain I felt.
As I was being driven off to the airport bound for my rehab in Venezuela, Fixed Cross called. I told him “it begins.” Maybe he didn’t know what I meant, even though I had talked about it. I meant the project of health.
Perhaps because of this, and so we teach ourselves by tapping into what’s inherently/innately within… I guess that is why I have felt that I am not here to teach, but to experience experiences.
Is it real if someone has to be taught the non-conceptualised?
Coming out of hippie-central and having been close to a family where the children supposedly were free to teach the parents, I report that one of them is dead, the next is a the quintessence of dishonourableness, and the third has transgendered.
You now what the problem is? Parents may claim they want the child to take control but as soon as it makes a slight move out of their comfort zone, they traumatize it with their horrified turning away. Because you see, far worse for a kid than it being forbidden stuff by harsh parents, is to be made to understand viscerally and without ever any explanation that its natural tendencies are abject.
Nay, I say the parents cant voluntarily set themselves up to be taught.
The best they can do is teach the child what they know to be valuable, and prepare for when the day comes that the child will enforce its teachings on them. If it happens they can be proud for being deemed personally, not just biologically, worthy of their offspring.
It is likely that the only thing a child can truly come to know is that which it was never told.