If there was a trigger that would explain why it has only started when it did but unless you know you cannot be certain
I do not remember any thing triggering mine and simply assumed that it was just a natural extension of my personality
What will you do if it carries on getting worse ? How would you stop it ? Have you considered anything ?
Do you experience it all of the time or is it only at particular times ? And is it specific or more general ?
OCD is actually a positive trait, not a negative. Almost all star athletes, businessmen, and competitors of all kinds, have high degrees of OCD. How else could somebody put 8-12 hours per day into their specialization and abilities, if it were not for OCD? The problem with OCD is when obsessive-compulsion is linked to bad behaviors and habits rather than good. Drug abusers and addicts, for example, could be said to have “OCD” with relation to their specific addictions.
The challenge is to direct obsession into something that is personally and/or socially beneficial. Then it would not be a “disorder”.
Excessive cleanliness, hoarding instincts, perfectionism, these are the ‘normal’ associations to OCD.
From time to time, I get this fear of my own consciousness getting in the way of itself, especially when I’m trying to enjoy something, or carry out some task.
The fear of my own consciousness getting in the way of itself, causes it to get in the way of itself, partly robbing me of my enjoyment of something, or my ability to carry out some task, so it’s a self-defeating, self-sabotaging fear, but I can’t stop it.
I don’t know what to call it, and I’ve never visited a therapist for it or for anything for that matter, even tho I’ve had it for about two decades.
I used to have a fear of being plagued by unwanted thoughts as well, often they were just annoying, like fear of not being able to get an annoying song or sensation out of my head, which of course caused the unwanted thoughts, but I don’t get this particular fear anymore.
Maybe it’s a form of OCD, fear of not being able to get disruptive consciousness or thoughts out of your head, obsessions without compulsions, something like that.
I kind of prefer to call it psychephobia, a portmanteau I coined, meaning fear of mind, or one’s own mind.