and you know, while this is certainly a curious question - where did it all come from, or was it always, or will it end, etc. - it’s not really the quest for an answer to these questions that drives the scientist and philosopher. rather it’s what an answer would imply that the scientist and philosopher is looking for. he thinks that if he is able to find a ‘creator’ (whatever that might be), he might be able to find some direction for his other, more pertinent questions; does this ‘creator’ want me to do something specifically and/or will what i do offend or appease this ‘creator’.
this indicates two rather intriguing existential problems; man doesn’t know what to do, and he can never quite grow out of his need for some authority (in religion, a father-figure on a cosmic scale).
now as a sport-theist, i like to put a spin on this traditional approach and suggest that if there were a ‘god’, it too would recognize these two rather embarrassing problems that man has and, to the extent that a ‘god’ would ‘want’ anything, wouldn’t want man to be troubled by such problems. or rather ‘it’ wouldn’t pay attention to those who do have such problems. i’d think that this ‘god’ would favor the bold and courageous… so much so that you might even imagine such a person being a living antithesis to everything hitherto held in high esteem by the prevailing major religions. who would have thunk it; the ‘antichrist’ as the personification of divinity?
now there is a long line of reasoning behind this proposal… reasoning that reveals the various ‘collisions’ between logic and such things as the ontological, cosmological, intelligent design, and argument from evil arguments. you might say that god is hiding behind these things, producing them for the purpose of being refuted by those intelligent enough to recognize them as illogical, and bold and courageous enough to take these conclusions to there greatest extreme. to liberate themselves of all restrictions placed on them by such doctrinal puzzles… puzzles which were designed to be solved only by a few.
if the transformation - transition into this divine state - could be put into the schematic language of music, it might sound something like this.
the stages:
0:00-4:29 = that existential anxiety and despair that comes packaged with religious belief not yet cleared of its errors. the immature stage; uncertain, at the kierkegaardian crossroads (to leap or not to leap), looking for a father who still ‘does not answer’ (nietzsche).
4:29-9:12 = begin the metamorphosis. one starts to lose faith… ‘this can’t be right, something is amiss, something is wrong’. one realizes how they’ve been deceived so many years. their minds begins to twist… a strength begins growing inside, plotting its vengeance, ready to finally liberate itself. one now understands, but doesn’t smile. not a smile, but a grin… a shit eating, sinister grin.
9:12-11:23 = breaks from the chains, rising from the ashes of the first stage and reaching that divine madness. it’s go time, alpha team.
11:23-12:30 = the final stage before death. all things must end. finished and exhausted, one is ready for their tragic death and goes willingly into its arms having lived as the ‘gods’ would have wanted.
so that’s pretty much what it would sound like. that would be the epic theme song ‘god’ wrote for the script. pretty fuckin’ good, right? everything else is just noise or elevator music god wrote to characterize the lives of those who couldn’t solve the puzzle.