Confessions:
If it was not have enough to candywrap everything, perceived karma or/and existential dread, and he told better to wrote truth may be to avoid the consequences donnas faith.
Life as existentially reduced phenomena , equates from a very long held theme: the sins ofnoir fathers.
What comes of this and how this come about? The sexual guilt of a children’s hour, Lillian Helman yawns, but it is a reductive effort to disjoin an act supposed to procreate , the semen wasted. Its a perception of hypocracy to uphold the myth of creation to kids, who happen to see their parents doing similarly as dogs outside, or they curious little beasts themselves, happen to glance at stores of unprotected porn.
How can the idea of the craziness of sex be equated with its animal nature while upholding a platitude of saintliness , of holding unto the innocent virginity of childhood?
What did they see, can they talk about it? Or maybe do as they do pretend not to see without the slightest suggestion of anything that may have gone down?
Why become suspicious about it and mix it with the greater one, that mixes unduly pleasure with the reality of the horror of the genetic deficit and it’s procreative-speciel consideration’s?
Nothing to get hung about, and it is for the advantage of modern men, that they are much more likely to avoid being pressed into a corner tunnel, like a wrecked train ominously speeding into it with no end in sight?
It can get very lonely as the place in zombie land, America yes, heading the opposite direction, toward an end of bright light light, where a reinterpretation of liberal management cues and ramifications of genetic maps, offered the coming age of Aquarius, of metaphysical connections in an age of freedom and resulting in sight to a new, shiny world of benefiscient and luminous technological applications.
An ungluing of the era of the old magic and the witches and goblins and the retributive gods.
The promised land of careless openness where the poor who will always be with us, can generate the good feeling of commaderie and good vibrations evolving with the privileged and the vested.
The guilt becomes tragically unfolded within the over stretched horizons of the fabric of social contentment, where more and more innovation and
functional unity can over come the differences of the economy of the ID, as well as that of the profit margin?
The seminal masturbation of abrupt social schizms, creating the bipolarity between the inner and outer directed selves with the outcasts in the middle, numbered in the disaffected thousands growing into millions: can it be the defining form of a very brave and new world?
Fighting the downward push of the vampiric eating away of a will, the power, eroding to make a change, to pull the mystical idol floating on the still and soundless lake , the lotus of desire, the son seeking the strength of the father, who can not pretend, and has to become real, even if over come by tragic weakness in the past incarnations, for it is countless fathers before him, who’s failure marked the heretofore weaknesses manifested by appearent failure. No it may not happen, as long as the heart beats.
Is there a magic in the god whose help he needs for the ultimate overcoming of the Major Arcana? That lack of reason some lost , and realising themselves, fearfully crawling like snails into their houses of horror?
The old magic of the sins of the fathers living in retired solemnity on their own Walhalla, afraid now to brand those left behind, below, in concentrated pulsating bounded types like animals to be accounted for, and expanding art, even descending into speciality for the special .
That is the meaning of the affordable liberal, and that man, that man, formed out of contradiction and understood via that contradiction, can actually pull of the faint glow of the coming of the apparent failure of civilization.
The new global unity, becoming manifest only through this contradictory presentation, can achieve its opposite, and defeat the program as usual, without appearing deceptive. Its not magic, its only a very carefully constructed sleight of hand, and the evolution of the convolution of all languages, primitive and complex, national and international, emphatically and methodologocally mixing the expressed and the implied, the natural and the artificial, the physical and the metaphysical , the archaic and the manufactured.
The mystical rose with Levi Strauss with the worship of levies.
Ask how the U.S. would have faired has it not afforded the 60’s ask not what it could have done for You?
The proof is in the pudding, old characters and plots recur in infinite thematic recurrences, but what is becoming new, is the fearless look into a new meaning arising out of the ashes of a shot up, worn out dead world.
The film of privilege becoming more simulation, wrap around reality, fearless manhood abruptly cease lying to their sons, leaping thus, while the new tech of varnished glory of the golden past restored and constantly revisited through the message of guiltless loss of ego.
Time is shrinking except to those deluded by false promises and psychotic social breaks, and the strong survive even if that fracture be redefined , a diminutive gentle breeze in a constant descent into the safe space of the cave of obsessive desire.
Your father denied or failed to make a stand amid his own puerile guilts and fears for he excluded them and left the female to try to hold it together, letting her strength rise as his diminished , the zero sum ending in covered guilt ridden states man today finding himself ;always his fault, mea culpa mea culpa mea maxima culpa.