about my interpretation of the nature of God

I may be wrong but I believe that I know more about God than most christians do.

First of all description of God is very difficult, because God is an all-encompassing existence.
God’s powers are limited by it’s ancient rules, laws and choices. God does not break a natural
law unless it is for the sake of a higher law. God is partially an illusion, partially real. God
contains both negative and positive states. God is the seed of all reality. God is a microcosm.
God is both complete and incomplete at the same time. God is unconscious and conscious simultaniously.
God contains both strong and weak forces. As such, God is of an unexpected nature, or of a nature
that typically is not to be expected. Reality outside of God is divided up into indefinite sectors
and fractions, some of which have rulers and ownership. As such, the manifestation intensity of
God will differ depending on which realm you are searching for Him/Her/It within.
Some things that are toxic to us are not toxic to God, and in his multiplicity he contains great
poisons, but he does not use these poisons to destroy reality. Instead God leaves them to exist
within the ancient or eternal codes which and processes, as which is often natural.

The laws of the physical universe were set in stone long before you were ever born.
God does not govern every realm or influence or control every realm. Higher beings
are capable of creating realities, too, as these beings bear the seed and as such
they may materialize a microcosm. It is difficult to understand why God allows evil,
but the many gods have made certain vows, and other things in this physical realm
are not controlled by gods at all. As such, there is pleanty of room for error and
suffering. This does not really state much about God, instead this expresses the
state of this realm and its inhabitants. Each realm is different and has different
tendancies.

It is arrogant to think that we can know God, and prophets become persuaded by
the spirits and dreams they experience. Godship is NOT determined simply by
you being the most powerful living thing in any reality. The microcosm contains
weak forces, and so too does God contain weakness besides its strength. May I
say again that just because you are the most powerful force in all of reality,
that itself does not make you “God”. Godship is determined by the completeness
of the seed. There are higher things than power, things too high to express
on earth. The seed must also contain these things in order to be complete. The
seed is of every nature, and by being with itself it produces its own law.
It is a mistake to suppose that God has only one law and that all must submit
to this law. The seed contains its own law as do we. As such, God is beyond
a monism of law, and the seed requires its own law aswel.

When we die, we have high odds of meeting with divinities.
Divinities are much more anthropomorphic than the actual God, but they
have hightened levels of certain divine qualities and through their
unique matrix, divine spirit filters into reality. Even a human being
can become a vessel of God, but, due to the true nature of God, this
human will not be able to destroy the universe or control everything.
God is of extreme difference aswel as extreme sameness. This means
that a divinity will have limited powers. God does not completely
know or feel itself in a single way or from a single personality. Instead,
reality ended up as it is in a state of many instead of a single mind.
The many minds are to some degree or another connected, and in some cases
egregores become divinities themselves, but none of them are truly all-powerful.

For this reason I believe in polytheism. I believe that deities are expressions
of a variety of higher powers which when seen as a whole follow a certain nature,
but are not expressions of a single personality due to these forces containing
contradiction. So in this way I am similar to pantheist and polytheist. I have some
degree of confidance in my beliefs and I am posting them just to help clarify if anyone was curious.

In a way, polytheism is much healthier than monotheism, in that a divinity is an expression of the energy of the psyche, and certainly we humans have many energies to project.

I hope you are not refering to solopsism.