In January 2015:
Jr Wells asked:
Do you think about suicide?
Ecmandu replied:
Every moment of every day for at least 22 years.
I am still awaiting a definition. However, to contemplate suicide every moment of every day? That has to come under the heading: Insane things to do.
If I was writing a book about the best way to get laid - that kind of approach would not be in the opening chapters!
Whatever ganja you’re smoking I want some. Must be some really good shit…
Contemplating suicide is interesting but somehow I’ve always found homicide a tad bit more fun.
But not every moment of every day! That would be insane.
There are some weeks 24/7 I fantasize about killing everybody. Especially the really stressful weeks.
Then there is rape, torture, and public executions that are reserved for really terrible days.
Somehow I manage to restrain myself from acting on these thoughts…
It can be very difficult being me sometimes.
Is that why you pack yourself off to the middle of nowhere?
Ecmandu has too much to offer to quit.
I get the jokes guys…
After I dropped dead and spent billions of years in the realm of the dead… I was resurrected, and they put a mark on my left hand to always remind me of it.
To be more technical, when I was resurrected billions of years in the past, so were all of you, but I’m one of the few who remembers.
I’ve had a lot of time to contemplate existence.
I actually don’t like pot, though I think all drugs should be legal.
Yes, that is one of the reasons. I always find refuge in the wilderness amongst the wild but even this is losing its influence or appeal over me…
I find that the further away I am from people the better I am off.
A form of self segregation maybe?
For some reason, my desire to come back in time was so intense, that you and this entire universe was resurrected… It’s kinda funny spending billions of years in the land of the dead and talking about drug policy to all of you… The water you drink can make you feel like you just snorted cocaine… I think I’m reasonably out if those realms now though…
It’s a switch talking to you all in standard rule-set.
I don’t know what I am…
But I beat the land of the living and dead I debate…
And now I’m back here…
I must have hit a loophole…
Depends on how you define ‘insane’ I suppose. People with mood and personality disorders can certainly figure it out- when they realize that any other normal human being would be overwhelmed with emotion in some circumstance in which they feel nothing, or feel the obviously wrong thing. There’s other sorts of situations where denying there’s anything wrong with you is practically a symptom of the condition, so folks like that may never figure it out- and may never tell you if they do.
The last thing I remember was that all of the stars were gone on a clear night sky, after they had changed positions several times (months worth of days)… And then something horrendous … And now I’m back here.
And you’re all back too!!!
I think I’m supposed to change time with my spirit, be thankful you are here instead of there !!
It actually seems pretty ordinary to me now, hmmm…
I’m not sure how to articulate all of this…
When you have the “karma” and you try to destroy yourself forever, things become strange on a very large scale…
Maybe that’s all I need to say…
This is hard to explain to humans ets and “gods”…
Some of them are used to time travel and reconstruction, but most are not.
Well… That part of my story really isn’t that profound, but perhaps it is for others … Don’t let it be!
In babbling now… You all have already met me and each other from my perspective …
That’s a lot for you to know !!!
I certainly do not believe that those who disagree with “my kind of life perceptions” carry a mental disease.
An important issue related to the OP is how we deal with warning signals, cognitive dissonence, confusion, doubt, fears. If we have a habit of shoving these things away, we are much more likely to be insane about something. If you can ride these things out and notice even slight flickers of them, you have a better chance of not being insane.
Sure you do.
As simple as that Moreno? You make it sound all too easy that is if you could even present a valid distinguishment of insanity versus sanity. Still waiting on that by the way…
Sanity-- behaving badly while knowing it’s not good to do so; insanity–behaving badly and believing it’s the right thing to do.
Well Ierellus, your definition of insanity meets the entire criteria of all human civilization which I alluded to earlier in this thread by saying all of human civilization is insane.
Of course if all of human civilization is insane that would exclude any sane people living within it.
My name has two rs. I cannot believe everyone is insane. But I’ll give you a token quote–“Civilization is an old bitch, gone in the teeth”–Ezra Pound.