Attila József; A Man Who Learned to Swim by Drowning

I’d like to bring to your attention two short poems by Attila József.

But first; a bit about his short life. He was born in Budapest to a Greek Orthodox family. His father left József, his mother and two sisters for another woman when József was three years old. József was subsequently given up for adoption. His foster parents treated him like a dog - exactly so - he was made to heard swine. They refused to acknowledge his name, simply calling him, Pista - a common name at that time. József anguished early-on that his very existence was a matter of question.

His mother reclaimed him and his two sisters at age seven. Together they went to live, and starve, in a Budapest slum. József often had to stand in line at a food kitchen from 9PM until the following morning at 8:30AM, in hopes of bringing home to his family a pail of soup or a bit of bread. But as likely as not, when his turn came he’d learn there was no more food.

The outbreak of WW1 only compounded József’s misery. He sold drinking water and stole firewood. He made brighly colored pinwheels in hopes of selling them to other children. In 1918 his beloved, but long suffering mother was diagnosed with uterine cancer. She died by the following year.

But then József had a lucky break. He found a way to enroll in a school for prospective teachers. There, he hoped to improve his writing, especially the poetry that he so much loved to create. On seeing the quality of his poems, a teaching assistant urged him to submit one to a local newspaper. He did so excitedly. When word came that his poem had been accepted for publication József was exhuberent.

This exhuberence was not to last. Having read the poem, a professor at his school was outraged. József was called in and told, “A person who writes this kind of poetry is not to be trusted with the education of the new generation.” Here is the poem that got József expelled.

Innocent Song

I have no God, I have no king,
my mother never wore a ring,
I have no crib or funeral cover,
I give no kiss, I take no lover.

For three days I have chewed my thumb.
for want of either crust of crumb.
Though I am twenty, strong and hale -
my twenty years are up for sale.

Should there be none who wish to buy,
The devil’s free to have a try;
then shall I use my common sense
and rob and kill in innocence.

Till, on a rope, they hang me high,
and in the blessed earth I lie -
and lush and poisoned grasses start
rank from my pure and simple heart.

This poem has been since praised by critics both for its lyrical quality (in its Hungarian muttersprache), and as “documentation of the post-war generation.” But such praise and recognition came far too late for József. He worked as a waiter, a laborer, odd jobs, just about anything that would allow him to both eat and write poetry. When he was 32 years old, he went to visit his sisters. There, he went out for a walk and purposefully stepped in front of an oncoming train. József’s sisters heard of his death by a “giggling village idiot.”

Here is the poem that caught my eye and opened my heart to Attila József; a man who learned to swim by drowning.

The Seventh

If you set out in this world,
better be born seven times.
Once, in a house on fire,
once, in a freezing flood,
once, in a wild madhouse,
once, in a field of ripe wheat,
once, in an empty cloister,
and once among pigs in a sty.
Six babes crying, not enough:
you yourself must be the seventh.

When you must fight to survive,
let your enemy see seven
One, away from work on Sunday,
one, starting his work on Monday,
one, who teaches without payment,
one who learned to swim by drowning,
one, who is the seed of the forest,
and one, whom wild forefathers protect,
but all their tricks are not enough:
you yourself must be the seventh.

If you want to find a woman,
let seven men go for her,
One who gives his heart for words,
one, who takes care of himself,
one, who claims to be a dreamer,
one who through her skirt can feel her,
one, who knows the hooks and snaps,
one who steps on her scarf:
let them buzz like flies around her.
You yourself must be the seventh.

If you write and can afford it,
let seven men write your poem.
One, who builds a marble village,
one, who was born in his sleep,
one, who charts the sky and knows it,
one, whom words call by his name,
one, who perfected his soul,
one, who dissects living rats.
Two are brave and four are wise;
you yourself must be the seventh.

And if all went as was written,
you will die for seven men.
One, who is rocked and suckled,
One, who grabs a hard young breast,
one, who throws down empty dishes,
one, who helps the poor to win,
one, who works till he goes to pieces,
one, who just stares at the moon.
The world will be your tombstone:
you yourself must be the seventh.

Michael

The first poem made me want to cry. And the biographical information gave me chills.

I’ll have to read more of this extraodinary man’s heart. Thank you, for teaching without payment.

Hey Underground Man,

It’s good to hear from you again. And nice as well is your generous note of thanks for the poems, for which you’re quite welcome.

I’m compelled to mention, UM, that I spent the 9th to the 19th of this month out in the Midwest with my favorite uncle.

No, that’s not quite correct. I wasn’t with my uncle. Or I should say, what was left of my uncle was in a hospice, and what was left only vaguely knew who I was. The closest he came to recognizing me was after I sat him on the toilet, shortly after I first arrived. He looked up to me and said, “You look like” (pause) “You dress like, my nephew Mike.” I honestly thought he was having me on.

Last Autumn, my brother and I sent him an airline ticket. He’d been diagnosed the year before with prostrate cancer. The initial treatment wasn’t too trying - radioactive pellets implanted in his prostrate. They worked a treat, only while the cancer in his prostrate was dying, rogue cells jumped ship to make new landfalls all over his body. But last October he was still strong and vibrant.

He had a charmed visit. The weather was gorgeous. Victoria, my uncle and I hiked two days in the mountains. Another day we suprised him with a sailplane ride. My brother and I concocted a third suprise. We chartered a large sailboat on Lake Champlain for the afternoon. Growing up, I always remembered my uncle having books about sailboats all over his house. But living in the Midwest the prospect of him actually sailing were remote. I don’t think I’ve ever seen a man so giddy with happiness as I did that afternoon. I kept wondering how anyone knowing they had an imminent, terminal illness could be acting that way? He loved the brew-pub we took him to. My brother’s friend and his chums had just done a batch of thick ale into which they toss hot stones. The stones carmelize some of the sugars in the beer and give it a slightly smoked taste. What a wonderful evening that was; three of the people I love so much, funny stories, great beer and a cool breeze coming in off the lake. I could cry now over the joy of it.

His health had worsened dramatically by this past Fall. He asked to go to the hospice by the end of November. As I said, I arrived on the 9th of this month. My plan was to stay with him each night from 9PM till 9AM, so that my Aunt could go home to rest, but on his especially bad days I couldn’t very well leave my Aunt alone with him.

Mostly, I sat next to his bed holding his hand. It’s odd that even towards the end - even after he stopped mumbling gibberish - when his hands would be shaking and fidgeting, as the dying often do, I could take his hand and feel it instantly steady, and familiarly wrap around mine. It’s a wonder hand-holding is so deeply imprinted in us. I read a good deal. Engineering mathematics and philosophy mostly, but on nights when his eyes stared open at the ceiling I didn’t want to leave the light on. And so I had quite a lot of time alone with my thoughts. Time to develop old ideas and remember bits of old poems. One of the poems that came to mind was Attila’s The Seventh. Sometimes I’d sing to him - er, to us. Eventually, I’d retire to the sofa next to his bed and try to sleep a bit (the same sofa my sister refused to sit on for fear that other people had died in it - as if death-cooties could attach themselves to things). Other nights, I’d just lie awake and listen as he repeated the same phrase or word for hours on end.

Priests would come in to see him; one of which was a decent enough fellow; another had the persona of a TV evangelist. They all preached the same sermon though - he’s going to a better place. Whatever. This was no place to have a metaphysical argument.

He died two hours after I stepped off the plane back in Vermont. My emotions are pretty well sorted out - I loved the man as though he were my father - this uncle of mine by marriage. He was a happy, loving, kindly man; handsome and lean as a panther; passionate about the things he loved.

Oh yes, I’ve since gotten an answer to my question: you know, the one about how a person could be so happy even as they approached the gallows? I found it in C.S. Lewis’, A Grief Observed.

“This is important. One never meets just Cancer, or War, or Unhappiness (or Happiness). One only meets each hour or moment that comes. All manner of ups and downs. Many bad spots in our best of times, many good ones in our worst.”

All this has me wonder if my little nephew will someday be the one to stay up nights and hold my hand as my own life wanes. Marcus Aurelius put it this way

“Yesterday a drop of sperm, tomorrow a handful of ashes…”

Of this I have no say. But in-between I have a choice; I can sleep-walk to the pyre or I can skip and dance.

“…etenal life belongs for those who live in the present.” Wittgenstein

It’s the passion of love, I think, that holds us onto the present.

“‘Don’t you see my friend,’ said he, ‘we are asleep until we love. We are children of the dust…But when we fall in love, we are gods…’” Tolstoy, War and Peace

Best,
Michael

That’s a very moving story Polemarchus.

Your words, which reflect your life, never cease to inspire my being. I thank you for sharing this and I hope you will continue to spoil us with your beauty and wisdom.

When you spoke, near the end, of embracing the moment – my own philosophical light, effulgently shining at the end of a deep, dark, bottomless pit – (just want to phrase it accurately), I was reminded of Lorca’s play, Blood Wedding. I was reminded of how the doomed lovers seemed to have lived more in one day than the rest of the characters, who were destined to live out long, passionless, lives.

You gave your uncle eternity, or, rather, you shared eternity with him. I don’t think there can possibly be anything greater than that, especially knowing how temporary we all are. That’s what really makes us beautiful after all, isn’t it? Perhaps then, Homer was right.

I’d like to share one more quote on this theme, from the animated film, Waking Life:

“The quest is to be liberated from the negative, which is really our own will to nothingness. And once having said yes to the instant, the affirmation is contagious. It bursts into a chain of affirmations that knows no limit. To say yes to one instant is to say yes to all of existence.”

Thanks again Polemarchus. I couldn’t have found a better way to make a 1,000th post. It is threads like these, and more importantly, people like you, that make all the time I’ve spent on these forums worthwhile. The honor however, my dear sir, will always be mine.

Moving as always, quite a life Polemarchus.

Beauty is a dream between our nightmare. All symbolic.

Beauty can’t stop darwinism. The eternals shall inherit the earth. We now evolve opon a readable page instead of evolving within a stumbling genome. The only truth is power – and within weakness a lie causes the body to crumble.

Humans can muster up many fancy words and feelings during the greatest trials in their lives – which is actually an expression of all of the good in us. Was it the scream of a rabbit as the owl’s claws sunk into its flesh? – or was it a ‘beautiful’ poem someone wrote about their mortal loss? They both sound the same to me.

Polemarchus, how old are you?

Polemarchus,

Your words are ever and always a wonder.

All of you have my sincere gratitude for your kind words.

Thanks brothers,
Michael

Didn’t you see my reply? How old are you?