I choose the evened out one, because that’s pretty much what I feel… but I’m also a cynical romantic… which means if I fall in love, I fall HARD and likewise out of love.
This is an interesting question, though slightly ambiguous so I’m just going to roll with things here.
Trees, personally I find it odd that you get on me for smoking pot, but you yourself are on medication, or at least you were. Here’s why: some people come to find their lives as ‘depressed’ so they go on medication, but in the end isn’t any sort of depression ‘medicine’ simply the equivalent of say… smoking a joint or being on like caffeine pills/alot of coffee. Whatever your reasons are for taking/using a drug, the results are the same - a disruption in the (what is actually a fluid, dynamic)* balance of your body to achieve 1 altered state in return for (what is usually) a ‘negative’ altered state such as a hangover, or being burnt out.
Not let’s get back to me. Pretend for this example that I choose not to do drugs. My personality is such that like I said, I’m usually fairly evened out, but I fall HARD for certain girls, which means big time depression when it’s over, (just like how the body reacts when it encounters a drug). Now let’s say that I didn’t like this disposition; not exactly, but alot like someone with depression, I could choose to take like… prozac or something to achieve a different and hopefully more enjoyable state of mind. A more dulled, less polar one.
I’m getting the feeling I’m not painting this picture well enough but the picture is this: It may not seem like it, but people’s minds vary to the degree that by scolding someone for smoking pot, you could also scold someone for -not- smoking pot (or at least eating a brownie a day). The trick, the thing most people are not taught is the amalgamative nature of the mind. You have to listen closely to the changes; why do I feel slightly different now that I’ve eaten that orange? Why am I now sleepy after eating that huge meal? Why am I paranoid when I’m high, and what is the nature of this? How are my senses being affected now that I ate 5 grams of shrooms? What are some overlapping trends here. I know some of you probably have no idea what I’m talking about… but this is such an integral aspect to my intelligence, at least I feel. I mean… what is more interesting to learn about other than your own mind?
In this end this question is about knowing yourself, and seeing that barriers of your mind with wheels at the bottom. I’m not saying everyone should just go out and become druggies, I’m saying that you are and you just don’t know it.
*The body is always in a constant internal emotional momentum. In the end everything we take in physically will cause a different change to the human body and seemingly, the consciousness as well.