With all this talk about love-drama around here lately, and Spring, and Sunshine, and the natural human imperative to reproduce…
…I feel the need to discuss somethings regarding my own relationship with a girl. Let me begin by saying all girls who are worthwhile for me to spend my interest in are taken by groups of men who actively-compete for social status so that they may impress this girl. If a girl grows up beyond high school and retains her virginity then she is either 1) severely screwed up, or 2) severely wonderful, moral, and pious. In my case, this girl (at the very end of her teenage years) I am talking about is not a virgin at all. So she has some kind of general attractiveness to males.
The case started out where she is living with a boyfriend who is willing to kill/murder for his girlfriend. She told me they “broke up” before her and I had sex ~ in fact, the day before! I withheld my orgasm because I have that much control over my libido and I am not willing to bear that responsibility in my life yet. I do not know if I believe her, the physical taunts/warnings she previously-expressed, or not, but it is rather inconsequential since the events already-happened. I have several concerns to think about here, including: my personal safety, the tactics I will use to steal this girl away, and the amount of effort I desire to put into all this. So far I have been playing the “friend” card even though we have pretty much gone all the way up to the very end point. However, I am now somewhat stuck on how I want to, or should, manipulate this environment to match my own selfish-personal desires. How badly do I want to ruin this girl if at all? How much essence of her should I leave to her other male competitors? Should I just leave her to her social group and sneak in for impregnation when that moment comes (I have the capability for it)? Should I live a more moral existence and lead-by-example in terms of Moral Authority even though that requires more (unnecessary) work on my part?
In this day & age, since Nothing is Sacred, I feel that I should just do whatever I want and may the consequences be damned to hell. I have the urge to use people very often through the exertion of my practical knowledge. I do not even enjoy spending time with most people, or anybody at all, unless they are giving me what I want unconditionally. That is how greedy and egotistical I am.
I ask and would appreciate your input on this, you ilovephilosophers…