Confusion and suicide:
What better force to side with?
If, for some reason, it has conquered all meaning, life and understanding – it is beyond and above all perception, and the perceivable universe.
If we were to gain a theoretically powerful position, whilst siding with confusion – this act would most likely remind me of pessimisms and negativity; what better way to win at the the game of pounding a thousand nails, then the quick and easy destruction of the hammer? Therefor, it is not I who am temporarily meaningless, but it is the entire world in which I live that is wrong and meaningless… Or perhaps I am somehow siding with the painful stupidity that I was ashamed of, and had never admitted/matured out of and destroyed?
Take one day at a time, because your long term plans must change or be let go of within a short while. The evil in the world, all of this vast evil that is beyond us, never has hurt or even touched us [in the deadly ways that it has destroyed so many uncountable lives], but we were intelligent enough to comprehend it out of our own initiative, and then we made but one error: we treated this vast satanic monster intimately, and give it our care, pity and fears, though it was a systematic and mostly an un-conscious or ignorant process of nature.
Why do we feel so scared when looking into the eyes of the devil, and seeing his bodily shape? Reaction; but our ability to see this thing, means that we can change according to the understanding that we have newly gained. No, learning of the greatest evils in the world does not demand a heroic personal act of salvation, leave that to the all-mighty, all-loving God [for we are far too unholy and weak to properly save the world]; but this awareness demands a simple request: – we can comfort and calm our fears with the trust and appreciation of our own new found understanding, which will bring our own body a safer future. Playing God is an arrogant frustration; being “played†by God, is obviously a want and not a need, which came from a human control freak.