Give me the patience to not bash the brains out a of Mexican coworker of mine all over the workplace floor who last time I worked made off the wall comments of me not doing my job fast enough or correctly which of course wasn’t even true. I need this job to put me through school and otherwise keeping from going postal on the rest of the world around me.
I don’t know what it is about Mexicans who don’t like me wherever I go. My previous job I was fired because I believe the Mexican guy there claimed I made a racist comment even when I didn’t. I don’t even consider myself a racist as I don’t judge people on that peculiar facet of things. I am beginning to think that wherever I go to get employment people generally fear my industrious work initiatives where they try to find every way to get rid of me because they can’t compete. This is really starting to bother me.
I generally don’t talk that much in the workplace and keep to myself, yet still there is always some asshole trying to squeeze me out. In the old world people would of been stabbed to death for much less offenses against their fellow men.
I ask the universe in all its supreme power to give me the patience to keep myself from getting into trouble.
Folks can cause problems for those that work harder, better, faster and more intelligently. Ignore them and just make sure your employer sees the best of you. I have always worked for the company and job not for the paycheck as does my husband and now our son.
You get self respect, respect from those that matter and generally are the last one standing. Walk away from petty bullshit, its hard but, you can do it. Glad to hear you are getting a good education that can make you the boss. Stay strong.
Put a punching bag up in your house. Beat the hell out of it after work. It will release a lot of built up hormones that stress produces and relaxes the mind in to a more controled state. Keep focused on your goal not the crap.
Do you have a mattress? If so you have a punching bag, lean it against a table, closet, something. Or if you have a spare pillowcase overstuff it tight with unused towels or clothes, tie it tight then hang it from a door frame. Biking is an excellent release too but, maybe not as satisfying???
When I was a kid, whenever I was having one of those days where it seemed like everybody I interacted with was out to get me, my mom would encourage me to consider my day from a different angle - is it really “the rest of the world” being assholes, or is it maybe that the rest of the world is doing it’s thing, and I’m the one being the asshole…
It’s like when people go through a string of significant others and are always complaining about how they can’t find a good one. One should consider, at some point, that the common factor in all of their relationships was them, and perhaps they are actually the problem.
This applies to your statement as well. If trouble “always has a way of finding” you, it might be time to consider that you bring it down on yourself. If you can. Of course, that doesn’t suit the main theme of your life, in which you blame external factors for all of your problems, but…
I remain hopeful that you’ll see it someday. After all, I may not like you very much, but you’re smart and clearly have the ability to learn, so I won’t root against you, either. In the meantime, commence bitching me out for daring to, once again, point out the obvious to you
Well Blurry, I appreciate the kind thoughts. I don’t hold it against you for what you’ve said. In some ways I am the same person that I was two years ago and in other ways not so much. For instance I don’t deliberately go looking for trouble anymore or pick fights with everybody I disagree with. That’s just not me anymore. Age will do that to a man I suppose. I find as I get older that I’m developing more patience and tolerance with people. Don’t get me wrong, I still hate a lot of fucking people, but I have found more constructive ways of enduring them.
I don’t know if this might happen, but why don’t you see if you can arrange to do a bit of “volunteer” work at a gym, considering that you go cycling at night anyway, and maybe the powers that be will give you an older punching bag in reciprocation. You can’t know if you don’t ask. And if you can’t afford one - well, you can’t expect to get one for nothing. How badly do you want that punching bag?
Or maybe you can find a place where they sell pillows cheaply. Buy a bunch of them and ducktape them together. That p.b. doesn’t have to be so long. IMPROVISE.
Who said anything about fixing my problems? I’m fixing my problems just fine.
If you haven’t noticed already, I like talking about myself. I am also trying to be nice here starting some casual conversations with others. I am trying to show here that there is more to me than just my argumentative side.
Cut a guy some slack here. I really am trying to play nice.
