Dilaudid Stupor

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“Dear people of America. Politics are hard. Most of us know right from, um, wrong. We have the power and know-how to end world hunger, to have peace and prosperity throughout the world, and with very little work or labor. This could be a golden age for humanity, a time of peace and productive leisure, wherein we refine our joys and venture boldly into new frontiers of mind, sea and space. It could be a lot of fun. We no longer need to compete for survival. A million-year war has ended between humanity and its world. Ended, that is, if we want it to end. The world has been subdued; it is us who have continued the hostilities upon the world, and in doing so, on ourselves. The madness can end. The madness must end. Politics are hard. They are a necessary evil. But let us not lose sight of our shared aim. Peace, prosperity, happiness. I call on all Americans to stop working at meaningless jobs. Stop living in ridiculous cities where dignity is scarce. Refuse to commute an hour a day. Refuse to hoard money and live miserly. Refuse to turn your back. On the contrary, embrace the privilege and joy, the art, if you will, of helping your neighbor.”

       -Anonymous Ovarian Cancer Patient (Spoken inwardly during Dilaudid stupor. January 1999.)
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I once thought I was dying from a physical disease, funny how I didn’t share her sentiments until I got over my delusions. But, I guess it’s the difference between resignation towards death - where one wants to resign the world to staticicity or languor (which is essentially death (but, ironically one knows it is impossible, thus wanting to resign the world to the meaninglessness or the chaos that comes from utopian dreams)) - and determination to continue to fight death - in that fighting spirit one cannot but know the world as being a fight and doesn’t even have the time/attention to notice the irony of utopias (unless they have to give it lip service to get help from the help-only-the-good-natured-sick charities (I wonder if chronic ulcers is common in cancer patients reliant on hotgn-sick charities)).