My point was that you needn’t worry about my energy levels. And as for how to live, it’s delusion that keeps us going, whether it give rise to lust or to wrath. In fact, delusion gives rise to lust, and lust may give rise to wrath. And, like I wrote in late November, my dharma is lust:
‘Although, like I told her in a voice message I recorded in Kopenhagen, my tantra is eros—by which I mean my Buddhist practice involves love or lust rather than hate or wrath—and although, in Qabalistic terms as I interpret them, I’m thereby cast down into the lower triangle of the Tree of Life and not the middle triangle, I no longer think I’m cast down into that triangle’s central Sephira, let alone the one on the right side (the right-hand path), but the one on the left—literally and metaphorically the sinister one… In fact, I now associate that Sephira with introverted Thinking. Although formerly, I was thinking it might be the sphere of the wrath of lust (the flight response to the non-moral bad—phobia meaning fear as well as hate in ancient Greek), I now think it’s the sphere of the lust of wrath—the enjoyment of one’s hostility, as distinct from the middle triangle’s painful hostility, serious hostility; my hostility is playful!’