What does spirituality mean to you?
Spirituality to me is having a different perspective that is somewhat different from my usual perspective. It’s a little bit like having two eyes that gives us depth in seeing. So, it has to do with impressions, and Antoine de Exupery’s “seeing with the heart” is often used to describe it. It is reading between the lines; feeling and following the magic of a moment; remaining in a thought, or in silence; it is having community, but also seeking solitude.
But it also has to do with expressing oneself; revealing what has arrived in the heart, whether good or bad. This happens in conversation, or in writing, which can be like a prayer. It also happens in our actions and treating other people. It happens in our thoughts, which are fearless but also sometimes terribly honest, and stumble out before we have noticed them.
But it is also about avoiding addictions, licentiousness and habits that also afflict us in the form of attachment to things and people. Throughout history, man has been suffering not only from diseases and wars, but also from his insatiable addiction to recognition and power, and from his overestimation of himself at the expense of his fellow man and nature.
It is these two sides of human nature that have always preoccupied spiritual thinkers and led to man’s attempt to redeem himself from the eternal wheel of suffering, whether through noble paths of virtue, equanimity, and compassion, or through discipline and regulations. Initially, intoxication was considered a liberation, but soon people realized how short-lived and chaotic such practices were.
Would you say that you are a spiritual person?
I believe I am, more often than not. But I am often not, when it would be good for me. I am two people, and it seems like sometimes the two take turns several times a day, making you wonder, “Who am I today?” or “Who said that?” When I was a little boy, like many children, I had an invisible friend who did all the things I didn’t want to have done - a little wave from the shadow we all carry around with us perhaps.
Although many say we all need something to believe in, I think it’s more like as soon as we can think, we have a belief, but it has to be measured against experienced reality. There is no-one who doesn’t have faith, or a spiritual component to their lives, even if traditional religions don’t serve as the basis of spirituality for these people. It is just unfortunate that alternatives are sometimes worse for people and lead them astray.
The practice of sports is an important area where people realize that if they live and breathe their sport, they can have a flow experience. Sports can be very meditative and also help with stress reduction, and the regular routines can be like a contemplative practice. I find when I run and practice my breathing that I can get a similar effect to meditating on a cushion, only with sports I have the movement and venting of the lungs to go with it.
For me, watching sports has more to do with belonging, as it often does in organized religion. If the team wins, life is good, like feeling affirmed in your faith life; if the team plays poorly, life is bad. Rightly or wrongly, the game or the players are gods, and people worship them with fervour.
Nature is another area for alternative spirituality. People love nature, which they often refer to as Mother, feel connected to her, and each use their gardens as a kind of altar. Many bring flowers into their homes, just as others have a religious sign on their wall. Nature also shows us the riddles of our existence by showing us beautiful scenes and cruel natural events side by side.
I believe that Mother Nature deserves serious respect, and that we underestimate our interaction with her because of her influence on us. We are a part of nature and did not come “into” the world, but out of the world. We are like the fruit of a tree, or, as a doctor once told me, like maggots in a corpse.
I also can be taken away by meditative music and even walk on the treadmill with it in my ears sometimes. It certainly keeps my pulse lower than without.
To say I don’t believe in a God would be wrong, I just don’t believe as many others do, and have to wince sometimes when I hear the statement of some believers, which, amongst other things, has led to my leaving the Church. What God is, is not yet clear to me, and I can say more about what he is not for me than give a clear definition. I have an underlying faith in a benevolence which is guiding me.
I believe how you treat people is often how it comes back to you in life - but it is far from certain. It is not obvious what benefits virtuous living brings one, only that it is better overall for everyone. The potential, however, should be undeniable from my point of view.
I meditate, read spiritual texts from various sources, know a little more about Christianity, but above all I try to be attentive, and pay attention to my fellow human beings and my environment. I try to honour life and the source of our existence, as little as I understand what it is I’m honouring, and love my neighbour as I love myself, despite obvious incursions on that commitment, which cause me to struggle.