I’ve already explained to you why things “matter” to me:
Eros and the striving for distinction are the two things I’ve found which most bring about a state of fullness and lust for life in me. This is not to say that they are rational, of course; just that they are very deeply ingrained in me. The alternative would have to be some kind of death drive. What “matters” is that it’s something to make me either want to maintain myself or to end myself! 