This thread doesn’t have a huge purpose… its probably something a lot of other people know by now. I’ve been having a lot of conversations in a 1-on-1 fashion recently, and in these conversations I have been incredibly revealing about my personal life, about my relationships with others, etc. I’ve never been a person who shares a lot about myself with others, but these conversations seem to being have a very positive effect - my honesty, frankness, empathy, and expression of personal misery(ies) seems to have a cathartic effect on others. I divulge some really nasty stuff in my own life, (some of which i want to get off my chest), and others seem to be incredibly receptive, and I am pretty sure I have somehow driven multiple persons to be more honest with me than they are normally with others. It seems to turn into a short-lived period of intense honesty, expression, love. It feels good. Feels like I’m needed. It feels like people trust me. Feels like I am a positive force in another’s life. Feels like genuine requited love from a good person.
Then then interactions later become boredom, shame (on the other’s part) - I’ve served my cathartic purpose and now people are ready to go back to shallow-land, along with their love. I’m not welcome there.