Ahh… well in person I’m different, actually I have extremely dark humor that people enjoy.
The rote nature of these videos is that I’m not attached to this world… a zero sum world, I’m speaking from a transcendent state to explain the mundane world. Things everyone should know, but nobody does, it’s also a loneliness …
Passion has rules my life before, intense passion, intense abuse and heartbreak… what I learned from that passion is that I never want someone to experience the heartbreak I have, which was my major insight into the zero sum world.
Without intense passion and heartbreak, I never would have discovered the flaw in reality, i’d still be the narcissist who got the girl, got the house, got the job, won the game.
What you see as my corpse, came from passion so deep. I’m not dead, this world is dead to me.