My boss told me yesterday I know more than I think. Actually its so far beyond that… I told him I always see other possibilities, I see other points of view and other possible occurrences of what happened, for example say if something goes wrong. Many times around here (at work) people will pin down an answer or a solution and run amok with it (mostly my boss), but I would be one of the ones to have a dilemma with jumping to a conclusion about what really occurred and then acting upon as if the assumption is true. There are many complexities, no system is full proof thus there are no error frees. The standard model of correcting problems and errors and improving upon things has become ridiculous in so much that every time there is a mistake, something must need to be fixed. Whether it is relevant or not doesn’t seem to matter so much as having a resolution and an upgrade or so to the method or system that led to the mistake. A lot of it is just smoke and mirrors to say to whomever (the customer, another boss) that “corrective action was taken” to prevent or diminish future occurrences, or at least reduce the consequences, of this type of error. As far as I’m concerned, personally here the whole entire system needs to be revamped but then again that would reduce my boss to a peon and have them spend a lot more money on my salary instead. Since my boss is the owners son and is trying to prove himself still, well maybe you can see where that gets me at this current stage. Cleaning up his mess and dealing with it, while I seek out a better opportunity to advance further.
I’ve also understand I’m not much of a risk taker. I did take alot of risks in my younger years yet they weren’t the sensible kind, so perhaps this is what has led me down a path of straight and narrow, as far as living out my life, playing it safe for the most part and living simply. My focus for me now has turned towards ramping up, rising a little more, transcending my past transcendence of coming from the depths of the abyss, I was once a fragile flower being stomped on, when I was much younger. However I progressed of course not only into manhood, but beyond those personality traits.
I’ve always thought I had it all, I have the world by its balls in many ways, I can stump people with complex verbiage while talking or do just the opposite, I can manipulate people but I prefer not to. I have integrity and honor instead, those I prefer. I know how to take things and shake them up, but I can go without that chaos these days. I can see people build their own traps, I play dumb alot just to see the show. I could intervene, but why? Anyways, these things I am going to ponder, any points on where you think you stand on matters like this would be interesting. Any advice would be welcomed. Thanks,
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Rose Lyrics
Artist(Band):A Perfect Circle
Don’t disturb the Beast,
The tempermental Goat,
The Snail,
while he’s feeding on the Rose
Stay frozen, compromise
What I will I am
Bend around the wind
Silently thrown about again
I’m treading so soft and lightly
Compromising my will
I am
I am, I will
So no longer will I
Lay down, play dead
Play your doe
In the headlights locked down
And terrified
Your deer in the headlights
Shut down and horrified when
Push comes to pull comes to shove
Comes to step around this
Self-destructive dance
That never would’ve ended 'til
I rose,
I roared aloud here
I will, I am
I am, I will
So no longer will I
Lay down, play dead,
Play this
Kneel down
Gun-shy martyr, pitiful
I rose, I roared
I will, I am