OK, I have a problem and I need your help.
When I was in high school, I really lusted after only a couple of girls. I didn’t make any moves or anything like that, because I was socially inept at the time (and still am of course). With one of the girls, it was more clear that we liked each other, since we had an accounting class together my senior year. I even took her out to a restaurant once and a movie once. However, during my freshmen year of college, I lost touch with her, because I was dating my (now) ex-girlfriend. The last time I saw this girl from my hometown was years ago when I stopped by to visit my parents. My ex was with me at the time and when I saw this girl at the store, I went up to her and hugged her, because I didn’t think anything of it. That was the last I saw of her.
Out of nowhere, within this last week, she returns one of my emails. We have not really kept in touch over the last several years, except maybe one word every couple years or so. Anyway, a several months ago she got married and I knew vaguely about it. Now, she sends me an email and hints that she wants to see me. My first reaction was that I replied and told her to call me. Then, I emailed her again and talked with her and she gave me her phone number. I talked with her on the phone tonight and a few interesting things came up during our conversation:
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she mentioned the last time we saw each other (when I was with my ex) and how my ex looked at her with jealousy when I hugged her.
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she mentioned that she doesn’t want to have kids – before – she went on to mention that “her husband” has family in our hometown.
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she mentioned explicitly: “If you are in town (where she lives now), call me!”
I think she wants me to have sex with her or something. I can’t think of any other reason why she would say and do these things.
However, because I am so superficially moral and self-righteous, I don’t think I should go through with messing around with her, because she is married. It’s basically an Injustice to prey upon another man’s wife. However, I consider that maybe she did make a mistake in marrying him. Who am I to say? Maybe she just wants to have sex with me and have her husband support her financially? I don’t know. I don’t know if I want to know.
What do you think/feel I should do? I am seriously considering going to see her, but if I do, then I know I am going to want to fuck her brains out. That’s probably not going to be good for either of us, unless I don’t have any morals. If I am immoral, then it will be good for both of us. What the fuck should I do?
P.S. I get the impression from her that she feels desperate for marrying the wrong guy, or, just making the wrong decision to get married, by the way.