I was in a car wreck today and I could of died.

Joker · August 8, 2007, 9:15pm

Not 100% exactly. Trust me I am under no delusion of what some people on this forum think of myself. Perhaps it is closer to 50%.

Thanks for being apart of that 50% however though.

Joker · August 8, 2007, 9:17pm

Indeed that is my position. I really have nothing to lose in my life currently as I am one step from hitting rock bottom.

( Which would explain where I get all my good ideas…Conflict.)

Joker · August 8, 2007, 9:19pm

Zero:

Joker:

I was going to a rock concert with a bunch of my friends today and on the way there the driver spun out of control with the van spinning in the air roughly five times only to hit the driver side of the van on the concrete of the road skidding into a ditch.

( I was in the front passenger seat feeling weightless having to escape through the broken windshield by kicking it out with the driver side of the vehicle being toppled onto the road.)

Had I not been wearing my seatbelt I would of probally dropped out of the windshield with the van on top of me. Had it been a smaller car most of us would of probally died.

There was six of us total in the van. Today was a lucky day but I did expirience the thrill of almost losing my life which was a enlightening expirience.

As Tyler Durden would say I had a near life expirience.

damn that sucks, im glad your ok

Thanks mate.

Joker · August 8, 2007, 9:25pm

Raven's Moon:

I edited, hope you dont mind. Was getting long.

Joker:

Tranquility…no fear. Perhaps because you knew it wasn’t your time.

I have always imagined life having a sadistic torture inflicting event in store for me that is much worse than a vehicle wreck. Maybe so…

Now the question that remains is, how will this change you? Don’t say anything. Just let me know. Some it will, some it wont.

It certainly backs my theory of life being insignificant and human beings being unimportant.

If anything it strengthens my courage and convictions in life.

Well it is sort of me. I really don’t have purple skin or green hair. Was playing with Adobe. I am strange but not that strange. LOL

Sadistic Torture…no. That is what is inside of you perhaps? Do you feel you need to be punished? Perhaps that is my own mind. Being when I was young girl, I thought I was a ‘bad’ person. That anything I got that hurt me I deserved. Someone told me that exact thing not long ago. My thought was"Oh no you just didnt." No one deserves to be hurt in life.

Human beings are important I believe, mostly to one another. No one knows exactly how long each of us has on this earth. So we make the most of what time we have here. How we do that I suppose is up to each person.

You look cute. ( Does the whistle.)

I don’t believe that I should be punished but if you understand the bad luck of my existance you would then understand where I’m coming from.

I expect nothing in life so when nothing happens I feel no pain. There was a time when I had expectations but in the end I got tired of being let down constantly.

Not many people care about me…You can believe that.

Raven_s_Moon · August 8, 2007, 10:30pm

Joker, doesn’t take a lot of people to care about you, just a few. I have many people I know, only a few close friends.

When I was younger I thought life should be as everyone said. Nothing happened as was planned. Now I have learned that it is those times we find the unexpected is exciting and a beauty in itself. Doesnt always feel that way at the time.

You ever see a notice a dandelion coming up in the crack of a sidewalk? People step on it, think it is a weed. Now when I look at one, I see beauty. The brightest dark yellow. The flower becomes a joy as a child makes a wish and blows as hard as they can to watch the seeds scatter in the wind.
The roots can be used to help the blood system not only in humans but animals as well.

A weed? No…one of life’s little surprises of beauty. It is all how one perceives life and life around them.

You see Joker, I see a young man who uses his brain and not just a book.