Solipsism - the belief that I am the sole primordial entity, and the exterior world is a product of my imagination. When I ever do converse with another person, I am just conversing with a different aged version of myself. Not the present self, but an abstract future or past self, from a tangent dimension; relearning the same lessons but in a new way each time - a triumphant symphony that echoes through the halls of eternity. This belief of “one thing existing” is not so much egotistical (in the common use of the word, not the technical) as much as it is terrifying.
Overanalyzing - peering through the cracks in my own existence; nothing but an ancestral heirloom - a collection of psychological traits which benefited my ancestors, and formed indents in my mind… dispositions in the cognition towards particular actions.
Masochism - inflicting pain (be it physical or psychological) on myself in order to transmutate it into unlimited power. My ultimate goal is to look back on my life as a tragedy, so I am able to be free of any sense of guilt or responsibility.
Duality - Interacting with the Shadow archetype (in the Jungian sense), and causing the ego to wage war against the Anima. Two selves - one powerful, but never real, only a becoming; one weak, but unavoidable, the true self, the inner child, unbridled innocence. They tear each other apart and merge together into a hermaphrodite - nothing but theatrical expression can be set as the goal for my actions after they merge. Like a Greek myth, where each character is a metaphor for mandatory characteristics of humanity.
Succubi - the feminine leeches I encounter throughout my life were the result of nothing more than my pursuit of finding my “inner self” (the Anima) in another person. She never existed, because she was me. The female body which I attached her to was, in the flesh, a parasite who planned on catalyzing my masculinity for potential offspring.
Isolation - becoming aware of the truth which I had so cleverly avoided in the past, and realizing that none of it ever functions properly once you have seen the mechanics of how it works. Why? Because we try to fix it. We try to improve it. We try to get rid of things that are not necessary, or things which reveal our all too human tendencies. Without ever realizing that it is necessary. Everything in the clockwork of our mind is required for human existence to even be possible, and none of it can ever be changed.
Immorality - We will lie, we will cheat, we will steal - and there is nothing we can do to stop it. All life (in a broader sense) is a matter of lying, cheating, and stealing. We kill things to eat them. We believe we are right when we are wrong. We cover ourselves with lies. And as Trent Reznor put it, once you know this “you can push it all out, and you can try to pretend, but you CAN’T CHANGE ANYTHING. You CAN’T CHANGE ANYTHING in the end.”