seriously, I think I’m great, good enough, and I got absolutely no one.
Please, elaborate…
You might be experiencing the symptoms of being a warrior, you are a gentle being? Are you ever filled to the brim with a fullness of life but at the same time experience sympathy, a sadness that pervades your being? You might be realizing your empty nature, and the beautifulness that exist inside this transcendental world. we are alone, but we are all alone together, you must remember. “I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells, I honor the place in you which is of Love, of Integrity, of Wisdom and of Peace. When you are in that place in you, and I am in that place in me, we are One.” There is no seperation.
I just licked my lips, and it didn’t feel good.
I just went and danced among many drunk women girls, and I dominated. It was a chinesse bar that I dominate at, no lie. And to say I dominate is not to exaggerate to any extent. I’d puy you bama boys to shame. It’s just how I’m built. I attracted many females, but could pull none of them. I just fucking went flagrant and all peeps better bow down to my dance step.
yeah, so that’s me elaborating, also, thats me typing with a dur
I can’t dance.
But this dude can.
Try not being such a superman and try sucking more.
Let yourself actually have interest in people and stop trying to show off your kick-assery, as valid as it may be.
Oh…and stop giving a shit and start going out to places because you want to be there; not because you want to meet women.
Trying too hard.
It’s always when you’re looking that you don’t find, and then when you give up, you do find!
Women are like car keys, in that sense.
The best thing to do is not to be looking, and then they seem to throw themselves at you. That’s been my experience, anyway.
I think you’ve almost given up, but not completely. About a week or two after you completely give up, that’s when you’ll have success.
And then you get into a relationship with that person and there will be others that flock to you.
Just don’t break up with the first person unless you are ready to jump right into another relationship, otherwise, you become single and (almost by definition) looking again and have to start the whole process over.
Anyway, that’s how it worked for me when I was younger.
I had a good friend, on the other hand, whose MO was to go to cities where he was not known but were relatively nearby and pretend to be gay. Not flamboyantly gay, but enough to draw a little attention. The ladies that are shallow love trying to convert gay dudes, it worked for him almost unfailingly.
He’d be like, “I want to have sex with someone I’ve never had sex with before, do you think you can find something to do while we’re in Pittsburgh?”
“Sure, I’ll bring my girlfriend.”
“NO!!! Don’t do that, the ladies always flock to you anytime your girlfriend is within twenty miles of you, in fact, can you pretend to be single and desperate?”
“Nah, I’ll just get so trashed that I couldn’t possibly even accidentally be appealing.”
“That works.”
that is not what i do. that guy does something dif. some peeps chorograph or whatever. I dont. I flow. You cant map it. You cant sell it. Thats it. That dude practices. I never practice shit, I just have fun, as the song comes.
did I mention, I’m operating inside a vaccum, because I am. This sucks.
its like really bad, except I force myself to forget how bad it is, so when it returns it is like a new form of bad, and therefore all the more worse, it’s terrible, but I’ll get thru it. Its just a long hellish journey until then.
I totally need to consume you. I mean, I want to eat ya.
my friends married and moved away. All of them. At some point, venting isn’t enough.
Now you’ve devalued yourself to pathetic.
yes.
I have.
shucks.
Then move outside the vacuum.
hey nano bug- friends are not everything- nor is anything else in life- we all are born by ourself and we die by ourself- you have to learn how to be happy just to be alive- just to exist- can you imagine if you did not exist and then all of a sudden you came to life ? - would you not be so happy to see your hands and feet- to see the grass and sun- to see light and darkness- to see the face of a person? you would be so happy that you were alive!!! you would be smiling for no reason- a smile because you are simply happy just to “be”- be happy to “be” my friend, this is your only chance- and you own it- everything you see is your movie- you are the director- look at whatever you want to look at and be happy that you get to run your very own movie- as my favorite southpark character cartman says- sweeet 
Following on the heals of some of Herds thoughts, I’ll elaborate a bit…
Go masturbate, and then go swim in the ocean by yourself at night.
If you don’t have an ocean nearby, then go running until you collapse and fall asleep where you stop.
Then get up and get back to your life.
nano bug we all hope you feel better!
Oh…I was serious.
Essentially what I said was, do one of two things; find tranquility or exhaust your body until you physically cannot stand awake any longer and collapse into exhaustion.
awesome truth!