Input/Output: I am a filtering system.

okay, not too long ago I considered myself a writer. But then I realized I had nothing to say. So eventually I gave up. To fight off my boredom, I’d read various books, or watch tv/movies, or listen to music, all sensory INPUT activites, and once I got “FILLED UP” on these data overloaded messages, I’d try to write again. An all-too vicious cycle. With no satisfying resutls.

It seems as if by exciting my senses, taking IN all this sensory information, I then feel COMPELLED to give my OUPUT, mostly through writing, whether creatively or just opiions, or even by posting on ILP.

Can someone explain how this input/output filtering system works? Why does taking IN information almost require the giving OUT of information? Is it a chain reaction of some sort?

How do I make it stop? Stare at the wall all day? #-o

I read alot of horrible books all the time, usually more than one at a time. Occasionally I get overloaded with ideas about things and realize that I have no cohesive sense of what’s going on with all the information or what have you. Then I smoke lots of pot and space out until everything sort of comes together. In the meantime I discuss whatever the subject may be with my fellow smokers who can relate to and somewhat account for the discontinuity of the line of bullshit that flows out of my mouth until I get what the books may be talking about. I’m pretty high right now. I hope that makes some sort of sense or relates to your question in a relevant way.

Information exchange is mostly a sort of brain-conditioning, a habit-forming, or acquired repeat. This is very cultural.

Once you stop this process, or reduce it, through years of hermitage, you could become more of a self-mind than a trash-can. That is to say, creating instead of being created by the low quality spirtings of the mass media and the old, outdated languages.

Forms of stress, or anger, can also be habit forming.
They are addictive due to the releases and brain chemistry, eventually resulting in some persons becoming what I’d like to call:
“olikos-nothos” [ ολικός νόθος ]
Also known as the “complete asshole” or “ubber bastard”.

That’s right, even harmful, useless or destructive patterns can become repeated, or “perminent”, because even forms of irritation can become addicitve. All it needs is a little bit of adrenaline-rush. That is to say: A sense of danger/trouble.

That’s right, humans are addicted to trouble-creation.

Trouble-creating forms of media are also addictive.

Drama.

^Drama is the perfect example, of un-necessary trouble-creating, which humans take in, constantly, in the mass-media.

If you put a group of pigs into a very small pen, for a long time, they would eventually get sick, because they would have to breath in each-others feces, etc.
^Said case is ni pandemical.

Most of human “talking” or “opinions” are also excratory, like vomit, urine, shit, etc. You name it! Digestion and logical reduction are forms of destruction. They break-down and absorb only tiny portions of raw-input, and then, they release the rest, as a form of poison.
Ex:
Eating shit is toxic. Don’t do it, plz.

Things such as touch, smell, “first hand experience”, I could say, are “whole foods” for the mind. whilst the [usually uninformed] opinions of others, are actually toxic excrata, that will damage the mind and retard it [though this is often confused with ‘self control’].

kev,
I read what interests me. My criterion for good reading is any work that makes me want to react–agree or disagree with ideas espoused. Putting these reactions into my own words is very satisfying. It does not need abstract ideas of social conformity or personal rebellion to such in order to provide my flow of personal expression and individual creativity. Writing is like a woman. You have to court it. You try to do at least one paragraph a day on anything. That exercize produces results. See your boredom as something worthy of expression. Then the gates of fluid expression will open for you. Writer’s block is most often due to lack of participation.

Thanks for the responses. You guys seriously are an interesting bunch.