Judgment Day
Why are we so obsessed with the judgment other minds have of us ? Why is judgment so important ? Why are we trapped in this 1 bit universe of any mind judging you badly and you suffering and “feeing bad” about it ? But most of all, why are we so obsessed of the judgment we have of ourselves ? Why can’t we just “suck” freely, and be a total piece of crap, wrong in everything, a total turd, with “no possible value whatsoever” ? Everything we do, even when we do it “for ourselves” is done in the background of some imaginary (or real, who knows ?) mind judging you and you feeling that you are achieving, that you are doing some good for a metaphysical imaginary world of minds and other minds constantly watching you and judging you, for some other minds judging you “good” (but those other minds can switch their judgment in a microsecond and even forget they judged you “good” before, but all minds suck hugely, I JUDGE ALL MINDS AS BEING A HUGE PIECE OF TURD, HOW’S THAT ?).
As if thought completely occupies all space and time and all metaphysical space, so thought is the only possible universe in itself, and thought is always judgment, but we can never really get out of thought, no matter how hard we try, but thought operates on constant measurement and judgment of other minds and any activity as being judgeable, and measurable by another (but it is always your own or no one’s mind, as the mind itself is just an abstract metaphysical construction that doesn’t exist and has no reality, except that of being a huge turd that I personally judge as a piece of crap).
It is as if only by being perceived by other minds we actually do exist, only by constantly being measured and compared do we exist. We compare ourselves to the past, what we did, how we were judged, by how we made a mistake and were judged badly, but the truth is we all suck hugely and made all of the mistakes possible, get over it, you will all go to hell, there is no hope whatsoever (refer to my talking about HELL analysis): we love and hate the dictatorship of judgments.
But kill judgments, hose them, tell them you are the boss and you judge everything, all else is non existent as you assign what exists and what doesn’t. As if there is some kind of metaphysical stage where all judgments are objective and reality is only one delimitation of space, where that judgment saturates all of reality like that monolithic slab that is thought. So who will dominate that space ? In all truth, everyone’s judgement is worth “zero”, is absolutely irrelevant in the greater scheme of things, which implies simply that everything is dead, a void, without meaning, judgments (and judgments necessary), or causes and effects, without any goals, pure nothingness, that is actually proud of itself since it doesn’t have anything to prove.
But we ourselves are judgments that subdivide into individual minds judging other minds all in our own mind (as in constantly judging ourselves and/or others, do we get confused ? is it one big cloud and blob ?). We are thought that then divides and multiplies itself in a never ending array of independent cross and reciprocal judgments of itself and others, maybe each mind representing some external minds judging, but then all minds are all in one metaphysical space that communicate with subtle clues between apparently independent minds, but are all one and the same. All searching for “affirmation”, all wanting to be “accepted” (or loved ?), but all of these minds suck hugely, they are all wrong, Metaphysics has judged them all as one huge turd and being completely dependent on a 1 bit universe of good and bad, when the real metaphysical universe is way past our puny minds, and our puny necessity for “affirmation”.
But maybe judgment is important only because a seperate free will can inflict physical pain on you, therefore be sure that it judges you “good”, otherwise pain (again the pain/pleasure circuit dominates ? so it is all upside down ? another infinite recursion of intractable - impossible problems?).
Now go on, judge me you ugly slobs, tell me I suck. Am I supposed “to feel bad” because of this ? Are you god ? or is the judgment of anyone an instance of god’s judgement, but especially you’re own judgment of yourself and others, the judgment and measuring and evaluation of you, yourself, or I or others or anything ? Judgment being the constant prison guard against your freedom to completely and totally suck. How I love the idea that god will tell you all that “you suck” when you die, and then he punishes you, so that judgment was the last.
What is the relationship between Free Will and Judgment ? Another infinite recursion of intractable - impossible metaphysical problems, free will means we want to force our judgment and force others to judge us as “worthy”, but we want their judgment to be free, but it is never like we want it and so on and so forth forever.
The illusion of “progress”, where we are always back to the same starting point even after a trillion years, pain/plesure, judgment of others and yourself of yourself, constant simple fight against yourself and others, man as a constant fight and simple constant pure contradiction, and you thought all that effort of thought and experiences added up, aggregated: no, there is no serialization of effort or results, only fights, struggles and loses, failures, and more loses and failures forever, ever more, you will lose all and everything forever, that is how god likes it, he plays chess against you and then he crushes you and hoses you, what a huge satisfaction he gets: and infinite pain forever but that is actually paradise and infinite pleasure.
We are the Constantly Losing Machine.
So go on now, little Joey and Cindy, copy and paste this for your homework, show mommy and the teacher, oh what is that ? another GOLD star ? Wow, are you kids doing great in school.
Now go out in the backyard real fast, play together and find another new mental brain contraption that fell for some black holes far away, run around in the backyard together, seeing all kinds of new things, have fun, here is a new one:
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Wow, this must be really complicated, I can barely see a Free Will to Judgment converter, a progress to regress condensation machine, wow is that mind - universe contraption really doing interesting things (as a modified mind is all and one with its personal universe, such as Information Relationships Achieved).
