When you’ve reached the southern barrier you can stay
You can stay there, white sand and the shore
I did, many days, many nights, on white sand
Dreams sprinkled in the night of the shore
There too when I awoke
When teetering in the front of the southern barrier
Feel free to sway to each side
You are there, don’t lose your balance
It was too much for me, the sea’s rowing waves
I turned from the southern shore
It was the hardest thing I ever did
I looked northward and back
I could tell you what I saw then
As I walked away for the final time
My head turned back all the way
Sometimes you steal away in the night
In your dreams
When before you were on the shore
I can’t fathom that, tell me if you know
I walked away, head turned back
Sparkling waters did not cease to dance
They didn’t cease to charm the final moment
As the pass stooped over the bend
Please look at what you are leaving
Look that we have accommodated you now
Never had the water been so green
And they would whisper from afar
These waters are now yours
You only live once, white sand green water
Maybe not to return
I thought the hills were what I always wanted
I would take them
I thought they were what lied in the southern barrier
The hills were elsewhere and they weren’t what I wanted
I wanted the shore, damnit
But, I left it because I must have,
Don’t laugh; I must have knew something that I didn’t
Maybe a smile’ll be ok
Damnit the shore’s waves still haunt me
Sometimes I wake up in the morning
My dreams flowing in the rythm with the shore
I’ve never experience the physcial pain that some have
But, curses don’t do justice to that morning aching
My life, I’ve know hate, I have, I do hate
No one ever deserves this though
To wake with the salt water still in your mouth
The desperate rush of the summers in your youth bleeding in your heart
I am now too dull a person to enjoy them, why must they bleed me
Tell me you’ve experienced worse, tell me that I know nothing
Let many years on a burning stake quinch those fires, those waves
Don’t tell me they lie ahead for me, don’t tell me you would dare
Let me lie, let me wake, but never, never tell me they will return
Just please, tell me… tell meeee… those dreams
Those mornings will stop
Tell me I’ll never wake up with a sunburn on my cheek
Let me live, damnit, let me live without them
Memories so aquataneous they seer pain from my pours
Let me be crass, let me never wake up to them
I write this now afraid to go to alsleep
Bastards, they go in cycles, I can never anticipate them