Wonderer,
naw, it didn’t come out strange it just came out the way it did and I just didn’t “get” it – where you say - i tried to express one key idea: repeated generic triviality seems to make our lives pathetic… and you’re right of course, it can certainly create lacklustre within our lives.
we aren’t talking about 3XGreat’s here - and you were trying to make your own point with what you did write.
A sigh can express different things Wonderer not just a desire to rest, but it can express that too, loss of energy. It could also be an expression of sensing great beauty too, and not having the words to describe them so the sigh expresses what we can’t, at least I think so. A sigh can also express an awareness of something that we long for – the sigh here expresses a feeling of loss and resignation, of surrender. If we pay attention to each and every sigh, we can move backwards and then forward to discover what the emotion is. So the sigh leads to insight too. Gee, how wonderful is the sigh, who would have known. 
I agree with you here insofar as our lives are expenditure but then we have to find those things which can recharge us. Certain things expend energy but at the same time are capable of recharging us. Like writing for instance – it expends so very much energy but if we write about something that we know, love, that is important to us, we are recharged. When we feel burned out, have no energy, that can be our body’s way of telling us to slow down or to come to a full stop. Do nothing, just be and one can find what it is that will recharge one, even if it is just the swaying of the leaves at the top of the trees. You would be surprised what can recharge us.
I don’t call you pessimistic or negative – maybe you just need to find that which will recharge you. What happened to the boxing?
i don’t see anything wrong with that – there is a lot to be said for smooth waters as opposed to choppy ones, as for myself, i prefer both. if the gears have grinded themselves smooth, go out and buy new ones. At some point if they are too smooth, they won’t work at all, right?
just one thing…if you re-wrote it from wonderer’s own perspective, how would it be?