matters of utmost importance...

the convenience store gentleman, a aged fellow of some indoasian bloodline, a noble ilk to be sure, wants to kill himself because he plays the station that not even his customers like. he told me this. no doubt, he doesn’t either. it must be good for business. “well,” i said, “this is the way the world works. to live, something has to die. to have pleasure, someone has to suffer. - satyr we’re a strange breed you and i.” and sometimes, you gamble and lose. the bible reads “we will have prosperity by the blood of our brother.” - ezekiel 11:12. no doubt, he would have been familiar with that passage. we are, after all, religious. we’re not about to forego a big car so some arab might sleep easier, christ jesus. nobody knows what it means. we’ll sit at the barroom table and drink tall glasses of wheatbeer, try to talk, try to say something, try to talk. this is the way the world works, we can’t even shit. in france they drink grapewine, in russia they drink hard hard liquor, in conneticut they drink iced tea, in chinaasia they drink saki saki, but its all posion the same. alaska in winter is a place where everyone is drunk like in ontario but for different reasons. 17 year old girls want 28 year old boyfriends and those degenerates are happy to oblige when they’re not running for office. this is the way the world works, “all energy flows according to the whims of the great magnet” -hunter thompson.

BUT HERE:
“Thoughts have their Sunday too, come to think of it. We’re even more dazed than usual. Here we sit, empty, bewildered, contented. We have nothing to talk about, because nothing happens to us anymore, we’re too poor, maybe life is sick of us.” - celine. we die, long before life leaves us. sometime, at the turn of the end of grade 3 for most of us. when we stop staring at a majestic world with wonder and amazement… and start reckoning how will be when we grow up. that means, what we want to be - a crushing blow every time the question is asked. we fill our stomachs and shit toxic green. there is hope for us because nobody lives with celine’s outlook, not even celine. to stare at things with awe in their magnificence, that is the holy grail of philosophy. this trecherous path is strewn through pitfalls at every step. bob dylan is the king, “nobody knows what any of it is worth… business men drink our wine” …but you and i, we’ve been through that, and so on… we can still have nice gardens and not appologize for khaki shorts. we don’t need each other’s inside story, we’ll stick our dicks in cunts and thrust ourselves into the new millenium like a dick in a cunt, with all the joy gasoline and alcohol it takes. credence clearwater will play guitar and allen ginsberg will howl. jack will jump and jill will roll. robert frost will keep spitting out that garbage everyone likes and thinks is sentimental. pop poetry for the weaker minded. fine with us.
well, whatever.

Why do you think there are terrorists, sociopaths… psychopaths? Because in some circumstances it is better to have a blood enemy than to live with the dissimulation, and the slow diaspora of the higher desires, that a complacent comfort in conformity convinces us is right. To strike out at what you hate lends a certain affirmation of purpose to ones life, for it convinces one that he is in possession of a power in free will. To bend the thread of reality in the vortex of ones will allows for a belief to come to the forefront of ones understanding of necessity. And some people are willing to risk their lives in order to obtain some small amount of satisfaction from revenge with that belief. “It is necessary for me to punish others, because I cannot, or will not change (in most cases change is not even a viable option, nor is it even conceived) by reversing, unleashing my anger upon myself. I am already a hopeless case, or my case is already hopeless, and the only option left to me is make the oppressors pay for their transgressions.” It is then when the object “oppressors” must be defined, and it may turn out to be as broad a definition, or as narrow a one as the mind which does the defining desires. It may turn out that no one is innocent, and that the word itself looses all meaning. Or the opposite could turn out to be the perceived actuality. It all depends on the person really. In this age it is even possible to become a blogger to fulfill ones urgent desire to feel the power of revolt and mendacity flowing through you, but in that case it is better to find a bully pulpit and do what Ann Coulters done. If you’re good enough maybe you could even get a job at some left wing periodical, or for those on the other end maybe you could start a career at fox.

“But thus do I counsel you, my friends: distrust all in whom the impulse to punish is powerful!”
Friedrich Nietzsche, Also Sprach Zarathustra, Chapter 29

“The overman…Who has organized the chaos of his passions, given style to his character, and become creative. Aware of life’s terrors, he affirms life without resentment.”
Friedrich Nietzsche

“What is good? All that heightens the feeling of power in man, the will to power, power itself. What is bad? All that is born of weakness. What is happiness? The feeling that power is growing, that resistance is overcome.”
Friedrich Nietzsche, The Antichrist, section 2

Those quotes seem to resonate with the topic as I perceive it.

wow, you are a rare genius. one hardly even knows how to respond to such a post, but likely, it will have something to do with SUV’s and lattes, cnn, and ann coulters blog. in times like these, who could know what to do for sure. i just want to move to fiji and bring a prostitute, call me simple. if i had the money, thats where you’d find me. this world is madness.

Well, I’m on my second drink so at this point everything I said earlier may as well have been said by some one else. On that note I went out and got Death on the installment plan by celine from a library specifically because you’re reading journey. Funny how that works aint it. I must say that I love Celine. He’s a bastard but he’s an extremely honest one, and there are more laughs per page than a steve martin book. Not that I’ve ever read anything by Steve Martin but eh… as a comparison it works and no one knows the truth.