Thanks, Bob.
I would be interested in knowing how the pandemic is playing out in Europe, especially how it affects the mental conditions of those facing it.
I see my case manager on Monday, if the weather permits. Friday night was a minus 2F with about a foot of snow on the ground. Roads are cleared, but not all sidewalks are.
I lament that my depression makes me over concerned with myself. There is so much misery everywhere.
Weather here at 9AM, 1/27/22 is one degree F., a time for cabin fever. Next week we are to get weather above freezing. Maybe then this depression will ease up a bit.
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Have you tried vitamin D liquid drops Ier…? I started taking them a few months back, even though my levels were fine, and it perked me up, so might be worth a try… that, and an electric blanket. 
I’m glad that sunrise has gotten earlier… dawn at 8am was demoralising, but now it’s currently at 07.46… which does make a difference.
54F/12C here…
Hmmm, that’s -17°C which is colder than it has been for some time here. But still, windy drizzle at 2°C can be pretty disturbing too. Added to that, the core renovations above us have been very loud and driven us out of the house. I agree with MagsJ, a little more sunlight does make a difference, even more so if the sun actually shines. Tomorrow should be better. Hopefully I’ll have the peace and quiet to write a bit more.
I’ll have to try those vitamin D liquid drops though.
Bob, I don’t want to cross bounderies, but are You originally German, or did You begin to live there after immigrating there? Bob appears a very Anglo name.
I have been in Germany quite a few times, as a child and later as a teenager.
As all of you may guess, my depression has been always a conversion to anxiety, when I drink , it appears to allay the anxiety, at the cost of a erconversion to depression.
Guess that is what’s underneath the ‘periodic alcoholic’. Other than that , I am pretty sure, the underlying structural elephant is a reactive and not an affective disorder, primarily, but as self medication sometimes mixes things up, they do convolutedly. I was on Zoloft at one time, but read something about the painful effects of weaning off them so I quit that.
The cognitive underlying structure falls on the autistic - schizotypal continuum, and most of it comes from ‘situational’ effects. It took a long time to come to terms to view that as more of a gift, then it’s punishing aspect, insight being one.
That ‘gift’ has been a particularly expensive road to pay, but not something that could have been avoided.
“I am a European born in England” is what I told people for a long time, but I’ve been in Germany a very long time.
I have primarily somatic symptoms, which feel like anxiety although my head is free of anything of the kind. It is true that alcohol can relieve the symptoms but I am wary of the side-effects. There are times when it is excruciating, but I generally then try to sleep, which I have always been able to do. However, I am thankful that I am retired, since I believe that it was stress that caused it, and my last years at work were quite stressful. So, yes, it was probably reactionary like you said.
Ok I said it. Then what certainty is there between the discribed situation made by me to the opinion I based my acknolewedgement toward You?
I may be way off in my estimation.
Although my major depression is recurrent, my present concern is with how to get my apartment ready for bedbug spraying. Third time in 5 years It is an ordeal requiring much laundering, bagging clothes and mopping of floors. I’m nearly 80, so these things are difficult—for me and my cat. He has to be removed to another apt. for several hours during the spraying, and he hates getting into the pet carrier. Then, pending is the required move this Spring to another apt. while this one is renovated. The idea of rerouting mail, phone, internet and t.v. services is overwhelming.
I apologize for the doom and gloom attitude. My mother suffered from major depression also. She died of congestive heart failure, which her wine addiction did not help. I gave up cigarettes and alcohol in the Fall of 2016. Have not touched either since them.
My cat and I live alone. My step-nephew lives in an apt. above us. He transports me to my doctor’s appointments and to the stores for Rx and food. He’s a part-time alcoholic, mostly beer. I have to catch him between binges. Well, I’ve gabbed too much. Must prepare for mopping the apt. today. Current depression is situational plus.
Pray for me…
Is there anything like certainty?
Certainly there is an approximation of it within reasonable limits based on spatio-temporal progression; a guesstimate.
Psychic gifted have an uncanny gift of base such reason on subtle limits, and going out of the bounds of reason by exterpolating such signals from outside reason.
“We look before and after/ and pine for what is not. . .”–Shelley. Our only certainty is the experience of what’s happening here and now.
We pine and then, opine…
We look before and after, And pine for what is not; Our sincerest laughter With some pain is fraught; Our sweetest songs are those that tell of saddest thought.
Good one!
Happy to note that there are at least two people here who know of Shelley. He was a great poet, IMHO.
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To the victor, go the spoils…
And the loosers? Some kind of conselation prize?
Who on earth here would not have heard of Shelly.
Even the wife, the creator of ’ Frankenstein.
Yes, according to Iain McGilchrist, those who appreciate poetry and the arts are prone to melancholy and depression, but I found that regaining an appreciation took me out of the difficult phase. With me it is Wordsworth, but all poetry, including German poetry, helps me gain a better feeling about life, nature, people, almost everything.
Very fond of Wordsworth although Blake considered him a pagan in the pejorative sense.
“Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers./Little we see in Nature that is ours.” Or “The child is Father to the Man.” So much that is quotable.
My depression was not overwhelming about 60 years ago when I taught Wordsworth to high school students. They were so receptive! Now those days are like a dream.
The pagan aspect is in that quote you made:
“The world is too much with us; late and soon,
Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers:
Little we see in nature that is ours;
We have given our hearts away, a sordid boon!
This Sea that bares her bosom to the moon;
The Winds that will be howling at all hours
And are up-gathered now like sleeping flowers;
For this, for every thing, we are out of tune;
It moves us not—Great God! I’d rather be
A Pagan suckled in a creed outworn;
So might I, standing on this pleasant lea,
Have glimpses that would make me less forlorn;
Have sight of Proteus coming from the sea;
Or hear old Triton blow his wreathed horn.”
So, in a way Blake was right, but I have a lot of sympathy for this sentiment, thinking of the world of 1803 and the Napoleonic Crisis, with England changing unpredictably, and is possibly on the verge of a battle on their own territory with France. I think he turned to the memories of his rural upbringing and a kind of panentheism, seeing the enchantment of nature, which he brought to life in his poetry.