Because i did not wish to burn any bridges,this not a going away thread, just an absence thread. i have lost my use and joy for ILP.
Though i know of no better forum on the net,i am not satisfyed.
“I went out from them because they were not my kind.”
I Delayed in posting this primarily because i did not even want any reply, but in keeping with my wish for people here at ILP to always notify of thier coming or going,here it is.
My mental state has changed,not that it ever stopped changing,but… i feel i’m through. I also have slowed down as well,at the moment, and am not strong enough to go around ILP with that speacial something people need here.
It takes mettel to deal with the kind of people and ideas that come through here, and i feel i’m out. for now.
going to miss you, but everyone needs to recharge
once in a while, and this can be a positive experience
for you in every single way. You can come back with
a new outlook whenever you feel ready.
Drift: Until i read stuff like this,i basically did not know how my fellow forumers felt about me.Exept phaedrus i guess.
I guess they only mention it when i talk about going away. I had no idea i was appreciated at ILP.
Also, someone told me future man was back,is this thrue? Also,is dunamis still around?
It has been a while since i was at ILP."
K: a failing of humans is not to appreciate people enough
until one day, for whatever reason, they are gone and
then quite often we regret not saying those nice things.
There has been both a future man and dunamis sighting, even
a gamer sighting. People lurked around here all the time.
Everyone is appreciated around here, we just don’t say it
often enough.
We care about you - only if it is in our way. Some of us drift away and that is a good thing. Right when I feel like I am going to love it here forever - I puke. And then i am back in for another day. Don’t stay away forever, D. But if you stay away from here for too long - give Dan a hug from me.
I am glad you appreciate him. He does have his dark side, but hey - don’t we all. Don’t let the downers get to you, Drift. It is all a part of what goes down on this thing called Hellearth.
In time honoured fashion I’m going to take your post far too seriously
If that really were true then this thread wouldn’t have been written.
I’m never satisfied by ILP, but nor would I want to be. I don’t come here to find comfort or support or satisfaction. Perhaps you want different things from ILP than it presently offers, but bear in mind that there’s always a bit of a summer lull in terms of quality of posts (and an increase in quantity).
Seeking only those who are similar will limit the faculties of your brain, and you’re a smart guy with a strong imagination. Don’t give up on trying to make sense of all this.
For the record, I think that you’re a valuable poster, and I’m sorry for making the same mistake Gobbo did all those months ago.
You need exercise and a long break from your computer, as do I. You’re getting ILP burnout, that feeling that you’ve had all the valuable conversations you’re likely to have and that you’re essentially just showing the same hand of cards over and over to the same people with the same results.
One repays a teacher very poorly if one forever remains a student - Nietzsche. Treating ILP as that teacher, obviously.
Fair enough - take a break from all this online jabberwockying. That’s my advice. Read a few things that you haven’t read before, get outside and run about a bit, maybe do a few things that scare the hell out of you, like going on a rollercoaster or fighting a bull. Soon enough you’ll feel alive and inspired again and I think that you’ll feel you have a lot more to say here. I could be wrong, but there it is.
thank you. not takeing most of my posts seriously only adds to the problem.
it was true and i stayed away for weeks.i came to write this with much hesitation as i was drawn back to ILP because of an old topic notification in my e-mail.i cant remember which thread it was to.(i remember now it was"what was the most beautifull thing you’ve ever seen?" i was quite interested for lack of a better word at kevconman’s u.f.o. experience) since i was here then,i decided to(in keeping with my wish) post this,as i’d been rehearsing this in my mind for days.
i was upset by 2 posts in a row the day i left.none of them were jabs at me,but both of them seemed satanic.
i agree with what you’ve said here,but this sentance had strong religious implications.
thank you,seeing all these people that secretly enjoyed my presence made the difference.if there were only 1 or 2 at ILP that cherished my presence(posts),i’d feel compelled to stay,despite how hard to post it is when i feel like sh!t mentally.
i was referring to a prolonged mental condition of ineptitude.or at least constraint. all my time here i dreaded revealing my mental weaknesses lest i not be taken seriously.I feel it is temporary though.(long term temporary)
i do take breaks.if anyone’s noticed,i cant muster up that something to respond to (some)threads i’ve posted in for the longest time.i have quite a few to respond to,all sitting in the inbox as it were.
there it is, my most serious issues i’d held back from ILP “strangers” for the longest time because i was afraid of showing weakness.
but people’s responces to this thread literally made the diffrence of wether i’d be here or not. even after i could not use ILP in it’s mechanical sence(for the time being),i’d still stay for the sake of the people. that makes it diffrent from some technichal science forum. because that is even more tool-like.
after seeing the responces on this thread alone yesturday,i posted a bit.
you could say i was reconciled.
