My personal experience. Who am I ?
According to advice of parapsychologist Israel Levinshtein, I began to study religious practice-meditation. And once, involuntary, I felt that vibration wave came on my brain. This wave caused vibration of all neutrons of my brain. They started vibrating in the same phase, with the same frequency that the last wave. All the neutrons came to homogeneous “vacuum” state. And then I saw “myself”, my spiritual essence. i gazed and saw clean silver circle. And I initially understood that this circle was my true “I”. And this true “I” is eternal, unwounded, passionless, spiritual, conscious, evolutionary. It was so exactly, so clear, so real that then, recollecting and telling someone about it, I told him that it was “more real than I was talking to you”.
Most of all amazed me that my true “I” is passionless. Because I am an emotional person. How is that that I am passionless? And I somehow mentally asked: And what about love?" and mentally received the answer: “Way”.
When the vision of true “I” disappeared, the first thought came. And this thought drove on all the neutrons of the brain, having programmed them with one question: “how to explain it scientifically?” And I became a slave of this question. All my time was devoted to the search of the answer to this question.
Albert Einstein once remarked:
“The greatest trouble in the world is the idea of a personal God!”
“What is your flash, Khayyam?
Tent where for overnight’s stop,
As a wandering shah, the spirit did a stop”.
/ Omar al-Khayyam. /
The doctrine of a personal God could never be refuted by science.