Okay, so I am a man, interested in women. This fact has plagued me ever since I started to notice things going on “down there”, when I was in my early adolescence.
However, the problem with me is that I have never been able to just “go along” with the crowd. I have always had such a need to strike out on my own path that this has caused me to become profoundly alienated from my own peers.
Even though I’ve been fairly sexually attractive since I started lifting weights when I was 14, my mind has always gotten in the way of my ability to form relationships. I had always felt that my physical attributes meant that I “deserved” female attention, but this attention was never satisfactorily realized.
Starting in high school, I was slowly slipping towards a psychological nightmare, whereby I was becoming trapped inside of my own head. This continued on through my twenties.
In 1998 (after I got discharged from the army for going AWOL 2 times), my parents decided to take me to a shrink (I was 22 or 23), at which time I happened to bring along a Harvard Classics book on Plato. That book was my introduction into the world of “philosophy proper”, and I haven’t looked back since.
In 1999, I struck out on my own to San Diego, where I started to learn about who I truly was. Out there, I found people who could just live life as it came, and I was both inspired and baffled. I wanted that kind of spiritual vitality so badly, but I was resigned to the fact that there was no way around my own personality.
So, I continued to dig into philosophy, uncovering every inch of it that I could. But it wasn’t until I discovered Heidegger that I became truly intrigued by the written word. Eventually, I forced myself to read Being and Time (this was '04), and my imagination was sparked.
I began to realize that the “existential self” is the origin of the “intellectual self”. This notion allowed me to come up with a profoundly original philosophy that I consider to be the greatest truth that I have ever known (see First Metaphysics). Very recently (after a 1+ year long journey into computer programming), I was inspired to apply this existential philosophy directly to the world of science, where I have been making discoveries left and right for over two months, concerning the nature of the universe.
All of this means that my philosophy (my mind) has finally come far enough to comment upon the real world in which I live. In other words, my metaphysics and my physics have joined forces to create a holistic “way of thinking and being” that I cannot possibly ignore.
I consider myself to be a truly free spirit who loves and accepts both himself and the world around him. I am no longer afraid to shout out to the world what I am feeling. Consequently, the world – and all of the women that inhabit it – are slowly coming back into my life, and I could not be happier!
So, I am hereby inviting anyone who will listen to join me as I blissfully wander through this wide, wonderful world. I don’t know where this journey is going to take me, and I don’t want to know. All I know is that I love it all, and I want to share this passion with anyone else who will open their hearts.
If you think that you are trapped in a particular situation, you are dead wrong. You can go wherever you want to go at any time you damn well please. Trust your body to do what is necessary to survive: it has all of the instinct that it needs…
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