I feel like today I had a small realization, related to my beliefs and such.
Sadness is not evil, or bad. It’s a mechanism. It’s cheap. You can make it with a pill. It is not a universal force or element.
Happiness is the same, in that it is not good. It’s a chemical biological process.
It’s one thing to say it, but can anyone get beyond their own feelings?
Everything I do is because I wanted to, or had to.
But that’s just a mechanism.
Despite that, I have these human beliefs growing out of my experience.
What I want to do the most, I cannot want or do.
So I take a break, I rest, then later I try again, with this or that.
I feel like I’m living in a fake world, and that fake world is inside of an even faker, larger world.
I’m not trying to complain either, but what my experience is worth, it’s hard to say.
I woke up in a rather negative light this morning, solely due to some god-awful colleagues, but once I started my day doing the things that make me happy (10 minutes of weights, then breakfast) the negative cloak slipped off like expensive ermin - perhaps that is the trick… start the day with the things you love.
Let’s not throw the baby out with the bathwater. Happiness can produce good though.
You sound like a pessimist or a nihilist.
Why not?
Resting is a good thing. It can energize the body and spirit.
If there is something you would be wanting to do, and feel you cannot want or do it - perhaps you are living in a fake world, being untrue to yourself in a manner of speaking.
I normally feel very anti-nihilistic.
However, I may be misunderstanding my own existence.
I want to be a lot different than a human. I’m stuck though.
If there is something you would be wanting to do, and feel you cannot want or do it - perhaps you are living in a fake world, being untrue to yourself in a manner of speaking.
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Only certain types of lives can realize the falsity of this realm.
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I don’t want to destroy or harm meaning and value.
I just feel like I’ve missed the real deal.
My sense of value can be turned on and off by a switch of a knob.
That makes me wonder.
Sadness and happiness in too high doses can be very evil, as sadness causes depression and depression will make the neurons fire too much and they kill themselves, so you lose grey brain matter and becomes more unintelligent, happiness in too high doses can cause stress and goes the way of depression.
Therefore the mechanism of sadness and happiness can be good and evil dependant of dose.
I intuit or know that there are times when meaning and value need to be destroyed - for instance when we come to realize that what we value is not really worth the effort and when what gives us meaning is not realistic. Otherwise, it’s like living in the matrix.
Sometimes allowing these things to continue existing causes more harm and less “real” value.
But I will say here that we need to take care when it comes to destroying the meaning and value which others have built up within their mind - they may not be prepared for letting these things go.