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[Jakob]

Im filming while posting / posting while filming

So that is the case. I will put up the video in a minute. When it’s done.

[Jakob]

I warn all visitors here that this thread is non-philosophical.

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Why are we here?

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[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZshSY6RHdEM[/youtube]

It is just something I have to accept.

I believe that the comet Chiron is a very important part of our charts. It is the bridge between the personal planets and the outer planets, showing us the way to healing and the transcendence of personal pain. Once we get past the personal planets, if we wish to make a journey into the spiritual, we must first appease Chiron. He is the gatekeeper to our deepest wounds. He is there, guarding them, so that they cannot escape into your consciousness until you are ready to come to terms with them. It takes a certain level of awareness in order to work with Chiron, and if one battles what’s behind the gate without being fully prepared, they will be blasted back and have much ground to go back over until they come upon Chiron again. Though Chiron can only be worked on when approached, his ill still lurks inside our subconscious and affects us. That is why it’s best to make your pilgrimage past the personal to the domain of Chiron and finally start your self-healing.

Where Chiron is in your chart shows us where we will approach Chiron. It is where our deepest wound resides. The aspects that Chiron makes should only include major aspects to personal planets. A conjunction is most apparent. A Square or Opposition is next. You can use sextiles and trines but they are not as widely used.

Chiron in the 1st house: This shows your deepest wound residing in your sense of self. You may neglect your own personality or self-interests in order to appease others. You are a fighter for those who are less fortunate and give wonderful advice to others who seek your council. Helping others help themselves and find their true potential is your strong point. Your weak point is doing the same for yourself. You may have trouble defining yourself and finding meaning in your life. You often neglect yourself or feel unworthy. The lesson you need to learn is self-love and self-respect. Let yourself do what you love and take your own advice as if you were giving this same advice to someone you love. Build up your personality, don’t limit yourself or feel selfish for it, you must learn to accept yourself as a unique individual with personal power in order to transcend.

Before exploring the attributes of Lilith in the 1st house, we should mention that the article series is about Black Moon Lilith, also called the True Lilith. Thus, we should distinguish this mathematical point of alignment from the asteroid Lilith, and also from Dark Moon Lilith.

Lilith is not a planet and is not a material object. It is the hypothetical point connected to the apogee of the Moon’s orbit, the farthest spot from Earth that the Moon can reach. The Moon is not orbiting Earth in a circle but in an ellipse, and thus this calculation shows the astrological degree in the signs where when the Moon transits is more distant from our planet.

Black Moon Lilith is a rather dark point of an individual’s natal chart. The distance extreme of the Moon makes emotion and sentiments hit a low and show their cold side, and the placement of this mathematical spot signifies quite a lot of doubtful or even negative behaviors. Under one’s Lilith can hide subconscious energies of malice and self-undoing, yet it would be wrong to consider her as a negative spot.

When Lilith is located in the 1st house of a natal chart, she is strongly connected to one’s physical self, both the body and the mind. In case that she is conjuncting the Ascendant, the native will be oozing of dark sexuality, becoming an object of desire for other people. Lilith in the first house can give a very hot body, and especially in a woman’s chart can make her so attractive that other people can become obsessed with her figure. Also, Lilith placed here may indicate very bad relations with the female’s father. He can be of a violent nature, and the chart owner will frequently reproduce patterns of violent explosions in her own life.

In addition, the presence of Black Moon Lilith in the first house can give a tendency to wear black and morbid clothes, and generally have a rather dark and alternative style. The traits are quite common as having Pluto in the house, yet Lilith brings a less serious approach to clothing – the individual desires to look extraordinary and differ from the rest of the community. Also, taboo themes such as death and sex will be used as art and style to provoke the masses. A first house Lilith person will easily wear sculls, crosses, pentacles and everything else that will make him pass as dark in the other people’s minds.

Moreover, Lilith in the first house can also give a rather provocative character. The person who has this placement can have tendencies of acting “bitchy”, indulge in mind games and manipulations and even receive pleasure from confrontations with other people. Having enemies may be a source of personal power, and they do not seem to be discouraged when not being liked by others. In fact, this helps them create an even more strong and eccentric persona, frequently making their appearance and behavior be gossiped by the society. They take pride when other people notice them and discuss them, even if it is in a negative way.

As the 1st house is associated with the native’s body and how he treats it, Lilith will spawn her magic in the native’s everyday reality through quite a lot of means. Sex and drugs can frequently appear in the native’s life, especially if Lilith makes aspects with important planets. Good aspects can even show a very responsible use of these power sources, turning the native into a very spiritual being – even if he follows darker roads towards higher consciousness.

An adversely aspected Lilith can make the native have quite a lot of personal demons, and suffer from existential questions and dilemmas. Lilith in bad aspect to Mars, Pluto or other malefics can bring tendencies of self-abuse, love of pain and all types of perversions involving symbolical suffering. When in a water sign or negatively aspected to Neptune, a first House Lilith can give substance addiction.

On the other hand, taming Lilith’s dark powers can grant the native a fruitful life full of sexuality, while also a mind that can connect to deeper realms and understand the functions of hypnotism. In any case, the native can seduce others easily even if he does not understand the mechanism behind such phenomena.

In case you have this natal placement, understanding how to better channel the obscure energies of Lilith will help you very much avoid any negative effects. Be careful to hold back feelings of revenge, as it can backfire at you. Also, hold yourself away from self-destruction, even if it may appear as a vice that you enjoy. Know that you are easily noticed by others, your energy cannot just pass unnoticed; thus, there is no real need of over-exaggerating in your appearance and behavior. And finally, try to keep away from trouble! In case your life indeed has quite a lot, you will understand that most of the times it was your choice to get into trouble. Yes, this produces adrenalin; but if you consciously do it then do not be grumpy about it.

Jupiter in the First House
Jupiter rules the sign of Sagittarius, so a person with this placement will exhibit the personality traits of an Archer. This means the native is someone whose glass is always half-full, has unbelievably good luck, and a bluntness and over-honesty that can get them in trouble with the shocking, sometimes offensive things that spew from their mouths. A First House Jupiter native can easily fall into the trap of relying too much on their luck, finding themselves in some pretty sticky situations as a result. Because Jupiter is also the planet of abundance, someone with this placement sometimes struggle with weight gain. They are drawn to travel, particularly overseas, and have an overwhelming desire to see the world. The individual usually has strong moral convictions and are often perceived as being very “by the book.” However, they can also come across as conceited or egotistical.

These are all placements of mine, in the order of proximity to the Ascendant at 18 Aries.

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My Sun is in Aquarius, my Saturn in Leo. This means they were on opposite sides of the Earth at the time I was born. The opposition is pretty exact, 3 degrees by longitude and 0 degrees by Latitude. One could say it was a “full Saturn”. With a telescope it would have looked brilliant. But the aspect is troublesome, as Saturn is troublesome, especially when he is in the signs of the Sun Aries and Leo, because he won’t relent and uses the suns energy to place his restrictions. Moreover Aquarius is quite Saturnian in its self-regard, so the personality under this aspect becomes ‘aggressively grave’. Couple this with the immodest Aries ascendant and you get what is so relentlessly offbeat about me - why I insist on driving things, especially myself, into the ground.

Thankfully the situation is influenced by a truckload of lofty aspects to Moon, Pluto and Neptune; the first and third of which also form an opposition - which is of a deeply susceptible nature. Moon and Neptune together almost dissolve; causing an emotional life that spans the cosmos, or that at least sense it so. I am always struck that the people in the arts that I identify most with have this aspect as well. Many of them have Venus and Moon opposed Neptune. My Venus is elsewhere; in Pisces, at the 27th degree, being in Potolemy’s exaltation for it, making me unable to hate, or at least to sustain a hate for longer than the initial moment. I treat hate as just another indication of value. But I am an asshole about it, and afraid of it. It is pretty dark.

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The fundamental Cross is controlled by a Scorpio Uranus that squares both Aquarius Sun which it also rules, and Leo Saturn, loosely opposed Taurus Jupiter, which is so favorably placed to Mars that it manages to be free. But that square is shared by about a dozen or more people here; and Ierrelus has these two planets and sun conjunct. It would mean that I can sort of explode what Ierrelus knows; and Ierrelus can bring back to simple identity what I apprehend as a massive scope of conflict.

Perhaps it is this irreconcilable Saturn Uranus aspect that makes philosophers in this day; but on the whole, there is virtually no philosophers chart that is not ruled by a powerful opposition.