# Notes ••••
**URL:** https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517
**Category:** Creative Writing
**Created:** [May 27, 2026, 7:54pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517 "2026-05-27T19:54:31Z")
**Posts on this page:** 20
**Page:** 40
### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 2:36am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/781 "2026-06-06T02:36:40Z")
How quickly a dream turns into one. A bad night’s sleep. An ill timed message. An ill considered comment.
Zip zap zoop.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 2:37am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/782 "2026-06-06T02:37:40Z")
It’s for the best.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:07am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/783 "2026-06-06T03:07:41Z")
Everybody else at work can’t stop talking about how handsome my shaved face is. What in the sweet fuck is it.
One day I’ll find out.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:10am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/784 "2026-06-06T03:10:34Z")
Sometimes I do catch her staring. Is it second thoughts? Does she see something they don’t?
It’s too late now anyway. I sent her an email, to her work email of all places, saying sorry to make shit weird and I’m getting another job and don’t tell that to the boss and I will be curteous from now on (I started violently looking away in her prescence, then she started doing the same).
I need a map reader.
Tomorrow we apply to the armed forces as a gunner.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:13am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/785 "2026-06-06T03:13:02Z")
I’m not trying to be cute. Whenever I see her prescence I feel a physical pain in my stomach.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:14am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/786 "2026-06-06T03:14:38Z")
It’s for the best. She would have gotten a tiny snippet of my life in one of those long walks, gone “oh, wow,” then texted me later saying she’s not ready and this and that.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:18am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/787 "2026-06-06T03:18:24Z")
That’s what was fun about Nazi girl. There was some unstated rule that we would never talk about my past. I think I was more phantasy / daemon to her than actual person. Much was enjoyable about that young lady.
I guess she’s not that young anymore. I wonder how she feels about that.
Maybe she got out. Maybe she found a decent guy. It’s not impossible.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:19am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/788 "2026-06-06T03:19:45Z")
I just wanted a normal girl, criss de tabarnak. Paulita.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:22am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/789 "2026-06-06T03:22:35Z")
Paulita with the sweetest eyes I ever saw that much depth in.
The rocker chick who hates rock.
Little Indian girl.
What will become of you, then?
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:23am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/790 "2026-06-06T03:23:36Z")
“It’s not your problem, it’s not your problem,” that’s not the point. I’m a poet, the world is my problem.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:35am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/791 "2026-06-06T03:35:44Z")
There’s not much in general to recommend young people’s future today. In a skynet Matrix with teddy bear asthetics. Will she find some empty vessel of a non man? Will she become a clerk maid, feeling somehow robbed at 40?
Maybe she finds a man. There are few, but they exist. One that does not remind her of home.
I don’t know. Why do I care.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:36am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/792 "2026-06-06T03:36:45Z")
Oh I’m only pretending to care about her. Yeah fuck you, you’re a knowitall.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:38am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/793 "2026-06-06T03:38:16Z")
Some beer swilling fuckface. Get fat at 40. Sighing at don’t-know-what at sunsets.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:40am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/794 "2026-06-06T03:40:37Z")
But at least he’s predictable. A known quantity. Knows the procedures and follows them.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:41am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/795 "2026-06-06T03:41:38Z")
He’s not some degenerate ADD asshole who’s either 100 or 0.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:42am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/796 "2026-06-06T03:42:55Z")
What did she see, I wonder? How did it look like from her side?
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:43am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/797 "2026-06-06T03:43:55Z")
What sickness will I claim tomorrow?
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:45am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/798 "2026-06-06T03:45:38Z")
Insecurity is what she saw. That is the truth that hurts so much In don’t want to admit it.
But it’s that.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:46am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/799 "2026-06-06T03:46:45Z")
She does deserve more.
Meanwhile I gotta get the fuck outta here.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 3:48am UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/800 "2026-06-06T03:48:41Z")
I don’t like this town. It’s a little too international. Of course I didn’t come here for the people. And soon I will have my bike.
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