# Notes ••••
**URL:** https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517
**Category:** Creative Writing
**Created:** [May 27, 2026, 7:54pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517 "2026-05-27T19:54:31Z")
**Posts on this page:** 20
**Page:** 42
### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 12:38pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/821 "2026-06-06T12:38:18Z")
Well, at least now I kmow, I guess.
Holy shit.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 12:39pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/822 "2026-06-06T12:39:29Z")
I’m a little feral too, I spent so much time outside of normalcy. So much time relating to women fucked upedly.
Man. Can I say sholy shit again.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 12:41pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/823 "2026-06-06T12:41:34Z")
Haha “maybe she has to fart or take a shit.” It was so true.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 12:43pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/824 "2026-06-06T12:43:48Z")
Well, at least I didn’t go on the angsty destruction rampage this time. Worse I did was alienate a pretty girl I could have pursued.
@Ichthus77 was, of course, perfectly correct in every way all along.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 12:47pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/825 "2026-06-06T12:47:42Z")
I wonder if I can intercept that email.
I’m not sure what to do now, but at least I know what kind of feelings not to trust.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 12:53pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/826 "2026-06-06T12:53:29Z")
I think honor dictates that I follow through and leave. If anybody detects dettatchment from reality in this, please point it out. I have at least learned the lesson of learning to listen.
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### Author:  [@niallm](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/niallm)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 12:57pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/827 "2026-06-06T12:57:10Z")
Are there other places you can try?
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:07pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/828 "2026-06-06T13:07:32Z")
Sure, there are jobs. I kinda dig this army idea more and more the more I think about it.
But let’s pretend yes.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:08pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/829 "2026-06-06T13:08:34Z")
I mean, if that’s what you’re asking, I wouldn’t just leave. I would look for something, give two weeks notice, etc.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:11pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/830 "2026-06-06T13:11:18Z")
I haven’t burned any bridges. I was just maybe a bit overly dramatic in avoiding Paulita, and that email which is even then not a burnt bridge, but approaches it.
I was thinking maybe this morning I try to grab her and say “hey Paulita I sent this email, you can read it if you want, but yadda yadda.”
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:12pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/831 "2026-06-06T13:12:19Z")
Not sure what to do.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:15pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/832 "2026-06-06T13:15:11Z")
Even Ophelia is not wrong about most of the things she said.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:16pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/833 "2026-06-06T13:16:16Z")
Well, whatever the day holds, one day at a time, not much I can do beside play it by ear.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:23pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/834 "2026-06-06T13:23:28Z")
This is probably true. But I won’t believe myself too much about much just yet.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:33pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/835 "2026-06-06T13:33:17Z")
Yeah, no, what I have to do is extract myself from the emotional haze I am jumping right back into.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:39pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/836 "2026-06-06T13:39:32Z")
To the people who have been trying throughout the months, the correct diagnosis is: narcissist. Outwardly very charming and good looking, inwardly exceedingly insecure and possessive.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:53pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/837 "2026-06-06T13:53:55Z")
The narcissist creates a fantasy, an image, and whatever deviates from it is evil, has to be demeaned and denigrated into place. To the narcissist, this deviation is felt as catastrophic, the image was his everything. It is all a thin emotional facade, though he himself cannot see it.
It is a little like Umbrella corp in the early Jokovich movies. The narcissist is both the evil front and the little girl trying to save those who fall into the maze.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 1:55pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/838 "2026-06-06T13:55:19Z")
I am not evil. But nobody is evil. Dear people, please disabuse yourselves of this notion
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### Author:  [@Ichthus77](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Ichthus77)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 2:04pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/839 "2026-06-06T14:04:17Z")
> [@Socrates](#):
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> Then the idiot side of me let itself be convinced by 77.
You selectively ignored where I said don’t ask her again until your new job is set and after your two weeks’ notice is up.
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### Author:  [@Socrates](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/u/Socrates)
#### Post date: [June 6, 2026, 2:06pm UTC](https://www.ilovephilosophy.com/t/notes/85517/840 "2026-06-06T14:06:11Z")
I didn’t. I just lost emotional control.
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