We see happiness with cynicism. We have lost our romanticism, our idealism and our dreams when it comes to the positive. Nothing is perfect. This cynicism came forth in most cases, and certainly in mine, through repeated encounters with pain. Pain that would leave us devastated and dying. Growing up, and trying to deal with the numerous pains, we realise that no matter how hard the blow - we are still standing. We start to view unhappiness with cynicism, as the destruction that it so promises when it first hits us, never arrives. For a brief while, we remain idealistic about love and pleasure and cynical and strong about the painful. Until slowly the same thinking/feeling process that doesn’t allow the bad to become “the end of our world”, also strips the good of its perfection capability. And we fall into a peaceful, calm state of being where neither heaven nor hell exist. We call this wisdom.
Yet we quite often miss the foolish dreams we accidentally threw out. We miss our ideals, we miss holding someone or something as potentially perfect.
One day while we tread carefully and calmly upon the earth something attacks again and hell is looking at us straight in the eyes. The life-threatening dragon of nothingness is breathing down our face and we sweat, panic and shiver. We’ve lost our wisdom, we’ve let our guard down, we let our ego take over… We scold ourselves for going back to the primitive state of anxiety over a monster that exists only in fairytales. And there it is… The magic key word. A Fairytale. If the monster exists again, so does the prince and princess. If this big bad wolf can eat us alive, then the happily ever after can also be around the corner.
Can wise people ever experience the enthusiasm of a child again?