What bounds can hold?
Chain and leather enfold ankle and wrist,
Yet one will rust, the other will wither and fade away
Strength calls for strength and let no one deny it
What angel was ever born into this world without a devil to defy it?
With only a mild effort we can unfetter every bond except one
The bond of the heart,
Devotion even until annihilation
What does it mean to belong?
Of membership to a larger body
Can I belong to you?
Will you belong to me?
Such monstrousness
Every abuse is permissible
For the owned have no power
Only that slight sway of influence
Even that is left in the hands of an uncertain fate
Better then to be our own owner
Better then that your fate is in your hands
Such arrogance!
What then of loyalty and devotion?
Is the self the ultimate master?
Who is owner and who is owned?
If I give myself to you,
Even through you deny it
I belong to you
Can a servant have pride in his service?
Your desire is almost irrelevant
To my desire to be desired by you
I want for you to want me
I would willingly and joyfully be possessed
Take me, own me, rule me
You made master by my desire
(Or am I only a slave of desires
Using you to my own satisfaction?)
Desire you are the Godshadow
You use Masters as props in your dark arts
Yet you are the everlasting commander
What are you, you Dark God Desire?
Are you the servant of satisfaction?
Is satisfaction the master over all?
All of this, is it just a means to an end?
I would shape you and pull your strings,
even as you pull mine.
Yet granting you full indulgence,
What kind of wretched man might I become?
I mistrust you Desire, for I name you Dark God.
I call you wicked and would slay you
If only I couldn’t see your necessity
SO then I try to reform you,
yet this only splits you,
between the acceptable and the unacceptable
Yet still you endure.
What do I want to keep from you?
What do I refuse to give to Desire?
I behold that Desire leads to disintegration.
Desire can only serve satisfaction, which loves Time the most.
Satisfaction leads us most deeply into Time.
Which also leads beyond it
No, desire leads first to conflict
It is Conflict who I would prefer to avoid.
Why do I forbid myself from desiring what I would prefer to desire?
It is because I would usually prefer to avoid conflict even more.
Dreading conflict makes me dread desire.