Why must I fear loving you?
Why must love and fear intermingle so?
Why must these threads threaten to pull me apart?
Fear holds me with vicious talons
Promising disaster if I move but an inch.
I am paralyzed yet cannot find repose.
All the while, my love for you burns within my body.
With undying flames, love promises to consume all
The fire of love has never burned me so.
Love for me so often is a child of light, lifting me to the limitless.
Yet love comes now full of worldly substance
This love is an unending hunger.
A love that is too raw and too unrefined
It devastates me and leaves me aching
I cannot transform it.
You are the new gravity.
My thoughts and feelings ever draw towards you
Concern and interest occupy every instant.
I seek understanding,
Driven to find the elusive path to your heart
I must reach you
I speak to my confessor, seeing solace
Yet I can never say enough
Any relief is momentary
I cannot unburden my heart,
The weight of these emotions
Will not be dissipated
Beloved,
I would joyfully serve you
Yet you are silent and issue no requests
You are content, untroubled by this storm
I would worship at your temple,
For my love inspires me towards great adoration
Yet the doors are barred and chained.
You smile at me,
In simple friendship,
Unknowing of my torment
I long to be close to you,
You stand near me, but move no closer
Nor beacon me.
Nor welcome my advance.
Ah there is too much of this world in this love
Too little of the transcendent
Nothing to carry me back to spirit