Professor

I ask you for your help
and do not know what I need
I ask you for your help
to show me what I do not see

I ask you for your help
before my nose bleeds dry,
I ask you for your help
not knowing what am I

Yes, I ask you for your help
not knowing if you'll succeed,
I ask you for your help
not knowing if I'll accept

I ask you for your help, anyway
from the depths of my coked-out chest
I ask you for your help
unable to promise to take your hand

Still, I ask you for your help
to torch my tortured depths! 
Make them shout, sing--jilt them if you must!
I ask you for your help, though I cannot hear

I ask you for your help,
tomorrow I won't get another chance,
I ask you for your help
as my insides vomit and my body numbs

I ask you for your help
because I'm afraid of what you might say
I ask you for your help
because I trust in no one else

I ask you for your help
for the beauty of your eyes, 
that stature of your perfect bronze back,
the curve of your words, mesmerize me

Oh I ask you for your help
because I'm crooked and need to bend
I ask you for your help
because I'm boiling-mad and cannot speak!

I ask you for your help
because my hands, limbs, shake like winter oaks
I ask you for your help
because my heart still listens

I ask you for your help
for I don't know if I hold the bird 
(or if the bird holds me)
I ask you for your help

because your eyes terrify me, 
--your words pierce like viper fangs--
Oh! I ask you for your help
because you are patient, and I am stubborn

I ask you for your help,
not knowing the value of the cards I hold,
I plead with you for your help
for in my hands are hearts and spades