Repeated trauma:
Curiosity is the algorithm – which invokes an obsession with – the contents of amnesic barriers. Example: Person who was sexually abused as a child abuses children as an adult. Why!? I’ve already said why. Any sufficient amount of trauma and free time for self-reflection leads man down a road towards an obsessive compulsive disorder. The man was bitten by the vampire, and then becomes one. He bows to the god which has hurt him so.
Retribution or…
I think it is a learned behaviour having to do with the ‘path of least resistance’.
One repeats what one is acquainted with, even if it is self-destructive.
The mind creates a loop of thought which promotes thoughtless action and establishes character.
Just as one instinctively prefers the path already taken and with each passing smoothes it out further and makes it ‘easier’ and more comfortable, the mind dopes the same with thinking.
Especially in the early years when the brains connections are sparse and more malleable, future behaviour can be seeded here.
The only thing that can break a cycle is the Will.
The will to take the path not taken, to endure discomfort and suffering for a new direction, to ascetically deny one’s self the familiar and the easy.
If one, for instance, wants to disassociate one’s self from a generalization and a behavioural constant then one must deny its premises and overcome their establishment as part of one’s past.
The extent to which one can do this is determined by his particular talents and the power of his self-discipline and desire to overcome the past that determines him with its ease and, sometimes, its necessity.
Is our “will” the parts of our desire which are self-aware and capable of foresight?
I think of desire as need focused upon an object.
Will is this focus.