I haven’t talked to my father in over seven years. The last time I saw him was when he brought my westfalia to my apartment in Wilmington after I got out of jail. The westfalia had been parked at his cabin because at the time I wasn’t using it… I was driving my truck. He wasn’t just bringing my van to me, but also severing his ties to me, disowning me, dropping me out of his will. When he arrived there were very few words between us. I remember Natalie sitting on the front porch watching us talk in the front yard as the van was backed off the trailer and parked. I don’t recall the conversation in detail, but I remember him explicitly saying I was out of his will… but that this wasn’t necessarily permanent. In other words, the old man was saying I could earn my way back into his will. This severing of our relationship was the result of my sex offense… something he found absolutely intolerable.
I will never apologize to anybody for what I did. I will not associate with anyone who believes I should be ashamed of what I did. I will NEVER appease this man, and I will never speak another word to him as long as I live unless he apologizes to me. That he feels I should somehow earn back his respect by admitting to the guilt of a crime I did not commit is a joke.
This man is an IBM retiree and has somewhere around one hundred grand, if not more. He owns over ten acres of land in the mountains that I helped him develop, and lives in a house/cabin I built for him. He is an investor and receives a pension as well as his social security. In shorter words, the man is loaded and keeps getting richer.
Now watch this. It would be very easy for me to pretend to be sorry, to try to repair our relationship, to act sincere, and to earn his respect to get back into his will. The opportunity is there, and I know this man has been waiting seven years for me to call him, to break the ice, to get back in his life and apologize for what I did.
But I will not. Not now, not ever, because I will not be sorry for something I didn’t do.
What I have just done is forfeit several hundred thousand dollars for the truth. But it gets better; the thing that I have sacrificed for this truth should not be something I have to sacrifice in the first place. To be wrongfully charged with a crime I did not commit and be taken out of my father’s will, losing any inheritance that should be rightfully mine.
This tragedy is spectacular, and I love it. I love that I will not break, that I will not lie, that I will not pretend something I should not have to pretend. But it would be so easy to do. A twenty minute phone call… I’m sorry dad and I know I was wrong. Please forgive me.
Let’s see; a few hundred grand and a little lie… or nothing and the truth. Hmm. Okay I’ve decided.
NEVER. Kiss my ass you piece of shit.
In this thread talk about the sacrifices you have had to make for your truth, dignity and self respect.
If you have made a sacrifice that you shouldn’t have had to make in the first place, you get bonus points, and a nod from me.
If you have had to sacrifice a new phone to pay a water bill, don’t bother. I want extraordinary losses, losses that are quite literally the future of your well being. Far reaching losses that will change, or have changed, your life in the most profound way. Show me how hard you are, how much suffering you are willing to endure to maintain your principles and self respect.